My George

5th June

My George,

Today i woke up early... around 5am. And i decided to get up, because it's hard to sleep alone. And i tiptoed down the corridor, towards the kitchen to get some coffee, trying not not to wake Fred.

He was awake.

I thought i heard something and so i put my ear to his door. 

He was crying. Not just normally, but almost screaming. it was muffled though, so in guess into his pillow. And that's when i heard him. Saying over and over and over and over " Georgie come back, Georgie come back, Georgie come back, Georgie come back, Georgie come back " And god, my heart broke, and i tried to open the door but it was locked. And i banged on the door. And when he told me to go away, his voice was barely audible. and i sat by the door. Listening to him wail, for hours. Until i had enough, and i got the key from on top of the bathroom cupboard and opened the door. And i climbed into bed with Freddie. And i put my arms around him, holding him.

He forced me to open the shop though. on time. And when he came down he looked normal. and when i went up to him, he hugged me and said he was okay.

But i got ice cream for dinner. And when he tried to get into bed early, I told him he can't spend all day in bed. And so we sat on the sofa and watched funny tv programmes and laughed and missed you, silently.

I don't know if you're coming back.

Ipheion xx