The Yellow Book

Chapter 1~The silent cry

He was a person who always made you laugh , even when your good or when your feelings down.

He always puts a smile on your face everyday .

He ask you how your doing everyday , and if your not good he listen and be the shoulder you need and a big hug you will recieve.

To anyone that saw him saw a happy soul , but little did they know he was crying inside.

Depression had him in a headlock.
To difficult to escape from.
He tried his best but he felt his strength wasn't good enough .
He felt weak.

When the pressure got to much that he couldn't get out the situation. He reach out for help. But when he reach out to his parents, they shut him up saying stop looking for attention ,to leave them alone because their busy and all he doing is disturbing them from their work.

Little did they know he took their words to heart . I mean who wouldn't. When your mind in a dark space ,everything someone says especially if it negative the thoughts in your mind will put it on replay .

He went up to his room ,got his phone he called all his 5 bestfriends ,none answered .He called his 17 classmates, none answered .

He throws the phone at the wall. I mean after all he won't need it , its useless. Nobody is there to save or help him.

The voices was getting too loud . The temptation was getting to hard to refuse . The feeling in his heart and mind was in sync. He know what he have to do . To be able to stop the pain he needs to finally die.

No one will miss him . No one would care .Well so he thought. When he got up and reach for his sleeping pills he took a handful and swallow all of it .

He drink it with the water on his bedside table.
He laid down on his bed with a smile on his face . He put his hands together on his stomach and look up at the roof waiting for the pills to react . For everything to finally stop .

He started to cry ,is this how it have to end things ?Why couldn't they love me ?
Why did they have to neglect me? Why couldn't they save me ?

When the pills started to work he felt he couldn't breathe he started screaming but no sound was coming out he started to shake , foam started to come out as he shake and shake until he was gone .

R.I.P to this boy who only wanted love and affection. Who only wanted to feel safe and not neglected. Who wanted to be happy and not trap in the dark . He wanted to receive the same love he shared out .
All he wanted was to be saved ,but he was let down.

Little did the parents know their son had just past away. Little did his friends and classmate know they lost someone they can't get back .

The doorbell ring as the parents answered they saw it was their neighbor child, the silent girl who doesn't talk much . The silent girl felt deep within something was wrong with her neighbor today so she came to check on him. They let her in and she went to his room when she open the door she screamed so loud she couldn't recognize if that was her voice or not.

She shouted to the parents to call 911.
As the parents rush up the father pull out his phone and dial it . The neighbor went to his body and put her hand on his heart and prayed for a miracle. Asking God to bring him back its not his time yet . She start pushing pressure on her hands above his chest until she then saw the pills bottle and she then it was like a voice telling her what she had to do .

So she drag his body under the shower and she push her hands in his mouth,down his throat and to some miracle everything he had came up ,even the pills that were hardly dissolved .

He started chocking so she pull him out from other the water . He watch her with a weak expression and started vomiting again. When the ambulance came they had to work on him right away.

As they took him away to the hospital, she explained what had happened to the police officers. She didn't feel like a hero ,she felt happy and relieved that he was alive . She was feeling so weak and scared because she know what she had to deal with when she reach home ,her abusers is about to beat her because she came over to the neighbors house instead of going straight home . They don't care what her excuse was or who needed her , she always must come straight home .

She will always be trap and living in the hell at home . She became silent because why should she talk when she would just be verbally abuse and beaten for opening her mouth She couldn't tell no one else she will be homeless and be treated even worse than before. I mean she is living with her foster parents .