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you lie in on the couch downstairs as baby j and kio play with mochi, the sounds of your agitated boyfriend screaming upstairs. you sigh and play with your hair, fiddling with your dry dead ends before hearing your name being called across the room by maddy. you quickly look up and see the red head nodding her head towards the pool, a slight frown on her lips.
you sigh and push yourself up off the couch and follow her, hearing your boyfriend scream "fuck" loudly once again, assuming he died on his game. you close the sliding door and turn around, noticing that maddy has a sympathetic look on her face with her arms crossed over her chest. "what's up?" you ask quietly, stepping around the girl and walking towards the pool. "you know whats up." she responds, following you and sitting down beside you, dipping her feet in the cool pool water.
you slightly kick your feet in the water, observing the way the sunlight hits the water. "how have you been?" she asks quietly, noticing your eyes squinting as thoughts rush through your head. "i'm good." you whisper, gently chewing on your bottom lip as you hear maddy exhale, a disappointed frown on her lips. "you know you can talk to me about anything, right?" shes asks, grasping your hand in hers.
tears brim your eyes as you quickly glance up her, the pain and heartbreak finally showing. "i-" you stop yourself, inhaling as your body slightly shakes. "its okay." she mutters, letting go of your hand and wrapping her arm around your shoulder, pulling you into her side as your head gently rests on her shoulder. she slightly sways the two of you, humming as the tears make their way down your reddened cheeks.
"should i feel this way?" you ask, a sob leaving your lips as you tightly close your eyes, the salty tears dripping onto your thighs, soaking into your pants. "why don't i feel the butterflies when i hug him anymore? why isn't there fireworks going through me when i kiss him? why does he feel like a complete stranger to me?" you ramble, not hearing the slide door open and close.
"y/n?" you hear vinnie quietly ask behind you, causing you to jump and look up at the confused brunette, his eyes observing your tear-stained cheeks. "baby, whats wrong??" he asks worriedly, rushing over to you, gently grabbing you and pulling you into his arms, maddy staring up at the two of you in a frown.
you were stumbling on your words, you couldn't get a complete sentence out, and it was scaring vinnie. he watched you crumble in his arms, confused as to why you were a mess. he placed kisses all over the top of your head, his arms grasped your waist firmly, holding you up. your fingers fiddled with his shirt as you sobbed, not being able to control your mental breakdown. he moves his hands to the back of your thighs, lifting you up and wrapping your legs around his waist.
he opens the sliding door and quickly led you two upstairs, hoping no one in the house could hear your muffled sobs. he sets you on the bed before turning around to close his bedroom door. he stops and crawls beside you, pulling you down as you sniffle, the tears drying on your cheeks. he lifts his hand up to your face, his thumb wiping the tears off your cheeks. "baby, whats wrong?" he asks in a whisper, a frown on his lips at the sight of you.
you looked like shit. your eyes were puffy from crying, your lips were red from biting them anxiously, and your cheeks were stained with mascara smeared tears. "i.." you start but stop, your eyes wandering to the wall. "i can't feel anything anymore." you whisper, avoiding his gaze. "what do you mean?" he asks, confused as to why you won't look at him.
"i can't feel us." you state, finally looking at him. "babe- i don't understand what you're saying." he responds as you sigh and stand up, your hands in your hair. "i don't feel the butterflies or the fireworks anymore. i feel like we're complete strangers. i don't feel anything anymore i-" tears brim his eyes as he watches your body shake in front of him, his gut wrenching. "y/n, what are you saying?" he asks quickly, hoping you don't say what he's thinking. "fuck, vinnie, i'm falling out of love." his heart drops and the tears slide down his cheeks. you look at him with wide eyes, your mouth agape from the shock of the words that just left your mouth.
he stares at the wall, his heart breaking. "im sorry." you whisper, crawling beside him. he turns and looks at you. "was it something i did? did i make you fall out of love with me?" he asks quietly, his bottom lip quivering. you shake your head no, bring your palm up to his face. you wipe his tears, your eyes staring into his. "it is nothing you did, vin. it just happens. you are perfect in every way. i promise." you place a kiss on his forehead before pulling away.
"i guess this is a goodbye?" he asks, watching you grabbing your clothes that you left at his house. "no.. it just a.. a see you later? we can always be friends, vin. i don't want you out of my life." he nods, standing up and walking up to you. he places his lips on yours, the two of you moving in sync before he pulls away. "i needed one more before you go." he whispers quietly, his tears still wet on his face. you nod and hug him tightly, your heart breaking at the thought how he won't be yours anymore.
you pull away and peck his cheek before walking out the room, leaving his heart to break.
