Ours For The Taking

chapter 21: putting it out there

(ONE WEEK LATER, NICKI'S POV)

I finally did it. I put the picture up of Meek and I at the party last night. I can't believe it's actually official. Like really, really official.

My phone beeped. It was a text from Safaree. I got up off my bed and walked out to the balcony.

SAFAREE: hey.. How are you?

ME: you just left last week, I don't think you understand the concept of breaking up.

SAFAREE: whatever. Just trying to lighten things up.

ME: oh? Too late

SAFAREE: I love you.

ME: I love you too.

I instantly got furious with myself. I keep giving in to his bullshit. I can't help it. Yea we broke up, but I still love him... like, a lot. And he knows that. I called him.

"Hey.." He answered. "Where are you?"

"At my sisters house. Why?" He was concerned.

I was worried about him. "Just wondering." I sighed.

"So..are we going to try and work this out or are we just gonna act like we don't know eachother?"

"Safaree.." I sighed.

"I'm serious Nicki. I really want to work it out..."

"I have someone else now.."

"Meek? You can't possibly think he's the one. Really?"

"Faree I don't want to talk about this with you." I said through my teeth. "But we talk about everything together." He said. "Things are different now...Safaree. This is good for us. Trust me."

"How are we supposed to fix this if we never talk?"

"Safaree...do you trust me?"

"Yea."

"I know what I'm doing. Just be patient. And let me live. You don't know meek." I sat down on the patio chair. "I introduced him to you!" He yelled.

"Well who's fault is that?.....Listen. I'm dating meek and you can't do anything about it. I'm happy for once.." I smile and continue, "let me have my fun and you can have yours. This will all get better in the end. If we're together...or not. I have to go. I love you Safaree..bye."

"Bye..." He hung up. I put my phone down and closed my eyes. I felt the LA breeze on my skin. I just want to get over him so bad...

(TWO WEEKS LATER)

I'm at a party in New York with Meek tonight. We've had parties almost every night since the Grammy's...it's been crazy. I learned from stalking SB's instagram, that he was also in New York.

I was almost praying I had time to see him. I called his mother last night, because I knew he had called mine. My mom wouldn't tell me what they talked about. Anyway, in our conversation, his mom told me that Safaree is pretending to be over me. That she can see he's faking it.

That really hurt. I dealt with it publicly and I'm pretty okay with it now...kinda. He's hiding his emotions..and it's not okay. I'm worried about him. I want to talk to him soon. If I get a break from all these appearances.

Tomorrow is Valentine's day. Meek hasn't said one thing about it. I'm supposed to be having lunch with Joyce and Zeplin at 2. Then I'm going to the New York Fashion Week fashion show. Bad news: I'm pretty sure Safaree will be there. Or is that good news?

Anyway, after that, Meek and I are going to a privite Valentine's Day dinner, then the NBA All-Star Championship game. After that i have another party with meek til 4 AM. How am I gonna do that in one day..I have no idea.

(AFTER THE PARTY ON VALENTINES DAY, 6 AM)

"Meek please...I'm tired." I pushed him off of me. "Why?"

"I'm not like you I don't enjoy staying up until 5 AM at a party. Especially since it was Valentine's Day."

"Oh..you know that party was fire though." He says laughing. I rolled my eyes and turned off the TV.

I scooted down so my head was on the pillow. Meek put his arms around me. I put my hand on his and he kissed my cheek. "Goodnight baby. Happy Valentine's day." He whispered.

It was sweet. Yesterday was amazing.

But I didn't spend my Valentine's with the right person. I just pretended Meek was Safaree.

And everything was okay again.

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This chapter really sucks. I was supposed to put this out on the 17th but I never had time, sorry.