Ours For The Taking

chapter 14: taking control

(THAT NIGHT, 12 PM)

I lay in bed by myself again. I stayed on my side, as if Safaree was next to me. I hummed Pills N Potions and closed my eyes. i heard a naise downstairs and i quickly opened them. So got up and tip toed down the long hallway and then toward the stairs.

i relaxed when i saw that it was just safaree. I opened my mouth to say sometime, but then i forgot how to speak. "Oh.. I didn't mean to wake you." he said. "Why are you here?" i ask. I'm not going to act like i hate his guts, becasue i actually really wanna hug him right now. "I-I just needed to pick up some of my stuff."

"Where are you staying?" I ask. "Why?"

"I can't be worried about my husband?"

"The real question is why are you here poppin pills and drinking?" He asks, taking my hand. I backed away and looked down. "I've thought about it and..we just can't get divorced. We've been together too long to do that shit. We've been through everything, and i know we can get through this. we just gotta learn to listen to eachother, okay?" he says, and i nod.

I don't believe him. But I don't want to be alone tonight. "I know I fucked up really bad and it'll be hard to forgive but..Nicki your my wife and I love you." he leaned in to kiss me but I pushed him away and went upstairs.

I got back in bed and covered my head up with the sheets. I heard him come in and he snatched the covers off of me. "Safaree stop. I'm tired." I say. "No. Talk to me." he demands.

I sat up. "We're getting a divorce so what's to talk about?" I ask. "Nic... I heard Bed of Lies. And I feel horrible."

I snorted. "That was intentional."

"Nicki please, can we talk about this? I didn't know you felt like that."

"See Safaree you don't listen! I've tried to talk to you but you ignore me."

"I know and I need to work on that."

"And you never clean up after yourself..."

"Okay i get it. We have lots to work on as a couple."

"Safaree don't you get it? We're not a couple anymore. You crossed the line. We're done." I say, standing up. "I crossed the line?! You beat the shit out of my benz with a baseball bat!"

"You mean MY benz, right?"

He sighed and I crossed my arms over my chest. "I-I guess I can try harder." i say. "Same. Now let's go to sleep." He started walking toward the bed. "No. Downstairs." I pointed out of the room. He left. I shut the door but he quickly opened it. "Hey, I love you. I'm sorry for what I said earlier."

i hugged him and he kissed my head. "You're still not sleeping with me. But thanks for the effort." i said into his chest and then backed up. He kinda smiled. After he left, I shut the door and went to bed.

(MORNING)

I woke up around 6 and took a shower. After that, i went downstairs and smelled turkey bacon and eggs. "Breakfast for the queen." Safaree said, handing me a plate full of food. "Thanks." I reply quietly and sit down at the dining room table. I picked at my food. Safaree sat acrossed from me with his food and just looked at me. "What?" I say. "Nothin..." He looked away. "Um will you go to the store for me? I have a list an-"

"I know what you want. I'll be back soon." He got up and went upstairs. He came back dressed. He kissed my head and left.

I made a confused face. I know exactly what he's doing. He's trying to butter me up so I'll forgive him. I just can't. He caused me to almost kill myself. I don't want to go through that anymore.