HOT BILLIONAIRE

P A

Since we were now in a relationship, scratch that. because i honestly dont know where i stand but im redy to work whatever this is. He asked me to be his personal Assistant. Which i gladky accepted.

Back in New York City thank God. he has finally decided to let me do whatever i wanted now. I decided to pay a visit to my dearest friends.

I'm not exactly sure what happened, because I decided to get drunk. Drinking helps me relax and be more of a fun person, and I was at a bar with a lot of friendly people. I had a ton of fun there, dancing and playing pool and making friends, and I think I even got on good terms with Mariano mom.It was my third night out with her and I thought most everything was going really well. Mariano took me back to his house and he drove about 12 houses down to a vacant house where we would spend the night again. 

Few months later

But this is just background information. 

Mariano has a girlfriend, and has admitted to me that he's cheated on every girl he's ever been with. Obviously not the kind of person I want any serious relationship with, but he's unbelievably charming and fun to be around. Not to mention I'm extremely physically attracted to him, and we've already had sex. While I was still pretty drunk I asked him if he was seeing anyone else currently and if I can remember correctly he said just one other girl. 
But then I realized that that's all that I am.. Just one other girl. No one special, just another girl that he's sleeping with before he goes to be with the one that he truly cares for (to an extent I suppose). And it's not like I expected to be much more, I guess it just doesn't do much for my self-esteem to just a number. He's 4 years older than I am and that's 4 more years of countless numbered girls. And I really doubt he keeps track of how many. 
This all being said, I myself have been planning to date other guys and girls. In fact, I'm sort of extremely emotionally attached to someone else as well. 
I understand that I have no just reason for feeling the way that I do about Mariano because it makes me a hypocrite. And I guess I am a hypocrite, that's just something that I need to overcome. 
I guess I'm only writing this because as I was laying there on his chest, I fully understood the confusion of love. Some would say that love is putting someone's happiness above all else, but I'm not even sure that happens anymore... 
I thought that I was falling for Mariano and that he considered me something special. Maybe I thought that I was falling for him because I thought he thought I was something special. 
The role of the supporting role is too support, but who doesn't want to be the lead?... I guess I can't be the lead in every play. Maybe this is just the solidification of my jealousy and selfishness. 
Love is just so messed up...

As for now, we are good. He is dating a famous model, and i am nading a regurlar guy. i moved out about 3 months ago. I am still his personal Assistant and we see each other a lot of times, but never kissed or anything.