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persona.

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Who the hell am I?

It's a question I've been asking myself for the longest time.

I loathed myself for not knowing myself, for already hating how far I self-destructed.

I sat on top of the Han River's railings, my feet dangling freely as I stared down at the streaming river.

Should I just end my pathetic self?

Everyone would be happier if I was gone right?

I'd finally ease my parents' financial burdens.

I'd finally do my 'friends' a favour and excuse myself from their lives.

I'd finally do something useful for once.

I looked up at the sky once more, wondering what heaven would be like.

Yet it's a sin to die at my own will.

My bloodshot and puffed up my eyes squinted at the sun setting on the horizon, it's yellow and orange hues burning instead of its usual baby blue.

Golden hour.

The perfect time to finally jump off the face of the Earth.

But why was I surrounded in a pitiful darkness instead?

Yet it was also the time to rethink my choice.

As much as I wanted to cry, I couldn't. All that's left of me is broken.

Could I fix myself?

My phone vibrated against my pocket, snapping me out of my thoughts as I woke up to my pitiful reality.

Looking at the notifications bar did I finally feel like I had another reason to live.

For two people, in this dark world of mine, were my best colours.

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my butterfly:

if you jump, I'll jump.

get down from there u idiot

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zygote:

I'm right beside Jihyun rn

u fucking prick

I know u can see this

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