A lot of people say that fairy tales are just for kids, and yet I sometimes still find myself day dreaming of "what ifs" and "what could have beens".
Maraming pangyayari sa buhay ko na minsan binabalikan at iniisip ko.
Yung gago kong ex, paano kung binigyan ko ng chance? Baka nag-work out naman?
Yung trabaho na binitawan ko kasi napagod ako? Paano kung later on naging okay naman?
Madaming paano. Madaming baka.
Pero naisip ko...
Life is a gift. Happiness is a choice.
Madaling sabihin, di ba? Lalo na para sa mga taong ipinanganak na may gintong kutsara sa bibig o kaya naman ay mga magulang na talagang nagsisikap para mabigyan sila ng buhay na marangya, masaya at punong-puno ng pagmamahal.
Para sa mga katulad ko na namulat sa kahirapan at sa pamilyang hindi nasanay na nagpapakita o nagsasabi ng nararamdaman, hindi madali pero kaya naman.
Minsan may nagtanong sa akin, "What is your love language?" Nagkamali pa nga ako ng intindi.
Ano nga ba?
Growing up in the kind of family that I have made me braver and stronger. Hindi man ideal para sa iba pero masasabi kong malaking bahagi ito para masabi kong, 'I don't need affirmative words to feel that someone loves me'.
Yes, I appreciate action more than words because like what a pastor posted on social media, "Something is not right when the talking is too much but the acting is too little".
Kaya ang prinsipyo ko, kung mahal mo ipakita mo na lang sa gawa.
Words alone cannot justify your true feelings. Your actions will.
Naranasan ko na ang makarinig ng matatamis na salita. I've been complimented by people who actually doesn't like me. Kapag kaharap ako puro magagandang mga salita lang ang naririnig ko, but behind my back are spoken words that they can never take back.
I made it a pact not to say things I don't mean and act upon what I truly feel. What you see is what you get. Love me or hate me, I don't care. As long as what I am doing does not hurt anybody then I am good. This also may be one of the reasons why I am still not married at this point in my life.
Sometimes I ask myself if my standards are too high that no one was able to reach it, but at the back of mind I always knew that if a person loves you, standards won't really matter.
Having my heart broken a long time ago made me very cautious that only a few will be able to penetrate again. It will require them a fully-developed trust and commitment.
Kaya kahit minsan parang may tunog ng panghihinayang ang bawat "what ifs" at "could have beens", ang totoo I cannot imagine myself sticking with someone who doesn't see my worth and I am strong enough to walk away when I feel invaluable.
"Mommy..." tawag ng aking munting anghel ang nakapagpabalik sa akin sa kasalukuyan.
Sari, my 4 year old daughter, is the product of my three-month relationship with the guy who broke my heart.
Malandi ba? Tatlong buwan na relasyon pero nabuntis agad?
Like I said, I was and still is that kind of girl whose love language is action and physical touch. Na-sobrahan nga lang.
Sa lahat ng mga pangyayari sa buhay ko limang taon na ang nakalipas, si Sari ang hinding-hindi ko pagsisisihan. Yes, it brought "disgrace" to our family like what some of our relatives are saying but for me she is my biggest blessing.
