What if

reunited

I paid the cashier for my minimal amount of groceries before heading back out. I predicted to have a migraine  this morning, my heads been killing me all day, ever since that nightmare I had.

If I were to say how long it had been since I've gotten a decent night's sleep, I'd probably have to count on my fingers: each night its that same nightmare, as if there were a broken record player inside my head, playing that same sweet agony all over again, only- the sweetness was often drowned out. I wish I could say I longed for a night's sleep, you know the ones where you feel warmth just before you close your eyes, as if someone's..  holding you.

Yeah.

ones like that.

Today I got myself a can of beer. I know that's rather a bizarre thing to come out with but I havnt had one in a while. Years actually. It may also seem peculiar to be drinking this early in the afternoon, but I wasn't looking around for those who displayed their judgment, instead a place to sit.
The park was just around the corner from here; old, frail, wearing away at every crack, yet it was bustling with little kids and school mums gossiping.
I sat on an empty swing a little out the way, piercing open the can of fluids before taking a sip.

Disgusting

the bitter liquid slithered its way down my throat in an unpleasant fashion, ugh no wonder I dont drink often.
Actually thats a lie. I used to drink all the time, not because of the taste but just for fun I guess. But its never fun drinking alone. Its quite miserable actually.
Guess I made it get depressing again huh?
What if I could just turn back the time and live a different life, become a kid who had a childhood, running around the grass without a care in the world, scuff up my knees and be scolded by my parents.
What I would do to be scolded by my father again.
I didnt really know my mom, I was about 4 years old when she died so my memory is pretty hazy; a women with beautiful long hair, the colour of freshly fallen concors mixed with golden honey highlights. I remember playing with her luscious locks before falling asleep, her eyes full of love and admiration. That was one of the few memories I had of her.

"Sorry miss"
A little boy made a quick attempt of bowing after bumping my side in desperation to go join is friends, like I said, care free but happy. His shows were a little scuffed and he had snot dripping down his nose, gross but curious things children were.
He was running a little too fast for his legs to carry though, as if he was about to fall over any second.
I could almost make a bet on it, the precise time he'll fall.
I keep my eyes on him, not too long to seem suspicious but just enough to prove my bet.
he'll fall in three

Two

One

Bang

whats happening, where am I? No I havnt gone anywhere, im just- on the ground? how did I get down here and better yet why is my body so heavy?

I squinted softly in attempt to shadow my foggy eyes, only to now see another figure ok top of me. By the size and the low grunt thay left their lips i could tell it was a male. Had Dino sent his men after me already, it happened quicker that I expected, no that can't be it, was there a tracker on my body I was unaware about- questions flooded my mind before I finally came to my senses. Before the guy could get up, I maneuvered our bodys so I was the one on top now, holding his arms down with my knees and using my hands as a choke hold. Weather or not I should kill him was the real debate going on in my head, me, a murderer? No lets just make him pass o-

"ASH!"

A faint yell was heard behind me, another man but much younger than I anticipated. A pleasant yet raspy voice called for the man who was currently beneath me, I still had enough time to make this guy lose consciousness... only something stopped me.