Keresahan Perkara Cinta

dear my lovely ex, Kay.

yeah, it's 2 years after we broke up. i miss u. really miss u. but honestly if u texted me right now i wouldn't run back. i couldn't, because i know that if i did u would break me like u did before. my trust and love for u is unconditional and u broke it. i spent almost a year of my life with u and u choose a men you've know for a while but not as long. was i surprised? at first yes, everything just came at me at once tbh along with every other problem that decided to happen at the same time but, no. because deep down i knew that u probably just loved the idea of me. u loved having someone who wold do anything for u and u loved how i was so forgiving for every mistake. but somehow i still miss what we had even if it wasn't real. i miss calling u, i miss being intoxicated by ur cologne, i miss hugging u and oh god i miss ur smile. i miss being the person who got to say i love u bc i always meant it. but the worst part is we can't be friends and we socialize with the same group of people. and shit hurts it really does but maybe one day we will both come around. maybe friends, associates, whatever life throws at us to bring us back again. but for now i don't want nothing but normal.