Kissing The Scars

The Voilence I Crave

I woke up nestled up in a bunch of blankets on my head... oh my god my head... how much did i have last night... i looked over to see a note

~Hades
Cedric carried you up to your room. I changed you into some pjs after making Ced leave. I've gone out to Hogsmade... Dracos in his dorm, however Ced left with me. We will be back before dinner. love you !! Bella xxx

Well i guess that gives me time to shower and clean up... My room was a disaster so i'll just shower and then clean up.

I turned on the shower to let the water heat up as i stripped out of my shorts and oversized t shirt... i had dark bruising around my neck from the morning before with Draco... I titled my head to get a better view of my neck... i ran my fingers over it softly... the memories of it coming back. god why was i thinking of him right now.

I shut my mind down and finished undressing and hopping into the shower letting the water hit my face... it burned but felt so good... i turned around and ran my hand over my hair pushing it all back... i heard a knock from the living room of my dorm even over my music on the speakers... i ignored it and turned my song Eyes on Fire up a little... a few moments i heard the door open... i grabbed my wand from the counter top ready to throw a spell or even a curse...

"Hades, it's me" a muffled voice said. I knew that voice from anywhere though.

"I'm in the shower go away." i replied

"I need to talk to you" He replied. I ignored him. A few moments the door opened.

"Don't you have some girl to be shagging or did you kick her out too" I replied bitterly.

"It's not about that..." He replied uncomfortably calm.

"Harry... he's returned... with Ginny too" He said

"So?" i said holding back my tears. Keeping my voice strong.

"Do you want to me to wait and walk down with you to breakfast?"

"No I'm not a fucking puppy... I can handle myself now get out" I replied coldly.

"Have it your way." He walked out slamming the door.

I sunk down onto the tile flooring in the shower. god what was i gonna do.

Ginny helped Harry and always had a grunge against me for god knows what. She'd make sure I went back to not eating, cutting, humiliating me, and whatever else she could do to ruin me. I started crying into my palms. I finally looked to the ceiling catching my breath... NO she was not gonna do this to me... not this year... i wouldn't let them... and i'm not gonna let Draco and he's man whore self back into my heart... Draco... god what have i gotten myself into... i grabbed the razor-

1 HOUR LATER

I headed down to breakfast... I had a dark greenish sweater on with some light washed skinny jeans with a necklace Amelia had given me for as she quoted...

"You wear this when you need me and i'm not able to be there... to be strong... to be confident... so you remember you're not alone"

I missed her and needed her for the next few weeks to come... but to tie off my outfit i had a pair of black doc marten boots.

I walked into the Great Hall with my head held high. Hagrid smiled at me as i walked in.

He always made me feel safe. I saw Ron turn and stare i smiled back at him before taking my seat at the Slytherin table.

I sat beside Blaise hitting his shoulder.

"Hey there you are! Have fun last night?" he asked

"Yea it was wild" I laughed