Complicated Love

I belive that love is the most powerful thing in this world. People got connected because  of love. It can cure all the pain,  it can heal the wounds of miserable experience in the past. We can make things that we think it's impossible to happen.

Naniniwala din ako,  na may rason kung bakit tayo nabubuhay sa mundong ito. Hindi lang para maging masaya tayo kundi para maranasan rin ang ibat-ibang emosyon na mas lalong magpapatatag sa atin bilang tao. Alam ko at naniniwala ako na lahat ng imposible ay posibleng mangyari. Iyon siguro ang rason kung bakit ako pinaglaruan ng tadhana. They say i was too young to handle the pain of love. But i don't care of what they said,  kasi lahat naman ng taong nagmamahal ay makararanas ng lungkot at sakit ng pag-ibig.

I never trusted anyone. I never opened a door to anyone else because of the thought that mark in my heart that all will just leave me in time of my grievous part of life. I set a wall from them cause i dont want to experience to be left behind once again.

Mas pinipili kong mapag-isa,  ayoko na muling masanay sa mga taong darating sa buhay ko para lang saktan at iwan ako sa huli. I rather be alone than to have someone by my side who will just leave me afterwards.

I only trust my friends. They made me feel that i am not alone. Sila ang naging sandalan ko nung mga panahong sobrang down na down ako. I trust them because i love them. Even though sometimes,  i feel that they talking behind my back. I doubt their sincerity of being my friends because of their action showed to me. But despite of all of that i choose to understand them,  because their the only one i have.

My family whom i trusted most,  whom i think would care for me and accompany me in my mournful stage in life. Is the one who will drag me down and making me feel that im alone in facing my struggle in life.

But then he came, he made me feel special. He made me feel that i deserve the worth to be loved. He is the only man i loved the most. Sinamahan nya ko upang harapin ang problemang dumating at darating saking buhay. Binigyang buhay nya ang madilim at masalimoot kong mundo. Pero di rin nag tagal ang lahat. Iniwan nya rin ako.

All in a sudden i find myself asking. Why do i have to suffer? Bakit hindi nalang ako maging masaya. Ang taong pinahalagahan at minahal ko ng sobra ay iniwan ako. Ang taong umangkin sa malaking bahagi ng buhay ko ay nawala nalang bigla.

I was so down and miserable, 

When someone appeared and join me in my deepest pain and struggle. He made me forget all the pain. He made me happy,  and spoil me with love and care.

The time i realized that im falling for him is the time when he my exboyfriend  showed asking for another chance to bring our loved back once again.

And heres our story. My complicated love story with the two people who take the big part of my life.

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This is a work of fiction. Places,  Names,  Business,  characters, events and incidents are either the products of author's imagination. Any resemblance to real person,  living or dead,  or actual events is purely coincidental.

WARNING:  ERRORS are STILL existing in this story. Im not a perfct writer but im doing my best to learn and explore more about my craft. And if you dont like reading story like this,  fell free to leave. Thank you so much.