(This one is my second writing just before my illness. I hadn't learned about the poetic devices then but still I tried to write. It's a free verse you can say and also you can notice the childishness and naivety in it. The changes in the number of verses in every stanza can tell about the ups and downs in my life and other uncertainties. But do tell me if it places you in some paranoia after reading, like I was then. )
Don't need your disbelief, your unpleasant thoughts
They are far away from my pleasure
Gloomy it is ,black n' dark
Eating ,gnawing ,distracting, annoying
A lot of frustrations
But nowhere to expel
To express
Reason don't know
And no one has
Darkening ,horrifying .. my loneliness ,is it ?Just hanging by a thread
One wrong movement
Will cause a death
A death in the dark ,or I am lost in the black ?I see many intruders in this world
Disrupting the silence made by me
Trapping my thoughts
Beware of them!
Don't let them in
My world is
Under threat
A secret to be kept
So dark it is here
Can't see ,so beware
These creepers begin to dare ?Annexing this abyss of black
Defeating my rule and don't want me to react ?Implementing their words
Careless of mine
Making it hollow, making it disgraced
Denying all the present signs
Not willing to see any thought to rise
Caging these thoughts
These are trying to hide
They are in a rush
Their symmetry now disturbed
Scattered n' dispersed
This is for what they crept
Destroying thier peace
These are no more the inhabitants
My thoughts which once used to occupy this darkness ,are now in a cage ?They are calling them conquerors
They are saying that they made
Unaware of the fact
That they are just snatchers ,they didn't make
They shut my raising words
They shut every gate
Breaking every principle n' not a single claim ?They are trying to hush my thoughts
They know that they are blamed
I am running after these thoughts
To compile them again
But I am lost in this darkness
It's piercing me again
Trying to hide ,trying to run
Trying to fix those things ,which are now undone
I know that they'll burn them ,but how will I save ?
It's making me weak
I don't want to be
Preparing myself for the struggle
Future is decided
I can't retreat
These so called humans ,have invaded my territory ?Ruining its peace
Destroying my fantasy
They call themselves humans
They are nothing more than a thief
I found it for me
When no place was there to be
When no other place was there to abide
They trapped me ,scared of me
They were afraid that I would oppose them
They tried to suppress
Although i was weak
But i tried to conceal
I made my own world
I need it just for me
They snatched this only pleasure ,they snatched it for me ?I chose this dismal place
As a better place for me
I know that my talent
Could be free here only
How difficult it is to admit
Something which you're not
Hiding your weaknesses from others ,because you don't want them to be caught ?Now I have lost all my dreams
What I have now
Is nothing more than grief
Again I am trying to reconcile
I find some flowers
I find them blooming in my life
But people plucked them away
Why they don't want me to be alive ?My existence like a shattering glass
My words are like an unbearable task
The moaning dreams n' untitled graves
I wish that these things could phase
The more I think
The worst it'll be
Then why I couldn't keep these worst things out of my mind ?This shrouded death
The only way to escape
But how come I'll be able to reach this solace ?Grief ,tragic
Sorrows n' haze
These uncertainties
None could replace
Chasing hope
N' searching means
Where I will find that dove of peace ?
After all the loss
Which none could mend
This Unbreakable Paranoia ,never seems to end
YOU ARE READING
From My Eyes
PoetryA Collection Of Poems- How I see the world from my eyes. A delicate yet painful story of my life in several verses.