Flower [SoonHoon]

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'Meet me at my house after school?

-woozi-'

It's been quite some time after they reunited and the couple are as close as ever.

Jihoon really appreciates how Soonyoung didn't ask why he's reacting that way at the time. But he knows they need to talk about it eventually, because he didn't want to took the love and trust his boyfriend has been giving him endlessly for granted.

And so he gather as much courage as he could compile and told him.

Not every single detail, but enough so that probably it can explain why he act the way he did.

About why he's afraid of affectionate touches.

Why he closed the door to his heart like he lock the door to the music room.

Why he never really make a move on his current boyfriend directly in the start of their interaction.

Why he ran away when faced with everything.

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About why he's afraid of love.

The short but compact story that came out of the pianist mouth brought many emotions to the surface. Mostly darker ones. But after a while, the weight inside the shorter boy's lungs are now gone.

The dancer slowly grasped his boyfriend's sweaty palms tightly into his own, hoping it would give the boy some kind of strength or reassurance.

"Thank you so much. Thank you for telling me. I'm so sorry for hurting you."

He whispered while gazing into the blond's eyes that are now a bit reddish and wet with tears.

Jihoon shook his head, trying to say that it wasn't the red head's fault. Soonyoung seems to know what he was trying to say and just stayed silent while rubbing his thumb that are tangled with the other in a circular motion.

"I want to give you all of my love until you're ready. You don't need to force yourself, because I'm more than willing to wait for you even it takes years."

And so the night ended with both of the boys sleeping on the couch while wrapped in a thick blankets as the sounds of the movie end rolls and the smell of warm popcorn lull them to the world of dreams.

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|12월 4일 : 수영 (Rumex) - 애정 (love and affection)

| ummm… hi? Anyone still here? I'm doubting anyone is here for my head, but please don't come at me with evil intentions. It's been a year, and I do feel a tiny bit of sorry for that.

A tiny(?) dark rant:
I've been busy with college and stanning monsta x (a really good idea on my part). And new year just gifted a member of my family with covid apparently. So here I am in quarantine, with nothing to do other than watching youtube and wearing mask and washing my hands. Anyways-

Have a nice day and stay safe guys ❤