Dahlia [Minmi]

Chapter Four

'Missing you'

Minnie quickly wiped her tear away as she holds the lunchbox tightly. She put it inside the compartment of her motorcycle. She heaved out a sigh before wearing her helmet.

Minnie decided to just visit Bambam again today like what she promised, forgetting about the lunchbox. She parked her motorcycle at the side.

"Bam I got to see the branch building here. It was good but it would've been better if you are the architect of it." Minnie started to talk as she stares at Bambam's tombstone. "I saw Miyeon today. She's still beautiful I mean she always was. Should I stop the act?" Minnie curled uo as she hugs her knees, placing her chin on top of her knees.

"I never said this to anyone but I can fly." Minnie laugh at her own words. 'Fuck I'm going crazy.' She thought as she focused her attention to Bambam's tombstone. "My life is a mess and I don't know how to fix myself either."The Thai mumbled.

"This past few days I've been dreaming of Miyeon. Our past."

"I don't know why I'm dreaming of it but I realized something after four years. No matter what they say I still love her anyway and nothing can change that fact but I built my walls high. I don't want to end up broken again because I'm already broken inside." She added.

Minnie stayed sitting in front of Bambam's tombstone. The air was getting cold. "I think I should go now." Minnie stood uo dusting off her pants.

"I'll visit you again my friend." Minnie left the place.

Opening the front door. Minnie slumped her body on the couch. "Should I go out tonight?" she asks herself while staring at the ceiling. She felt her head throbbing in pain. "Okay I think I should not." Minnie sat up.

Sh heard her stomach grumbling from hunger. She hasn't eaten anything from the time she woke up. She stood up as she walks towards the kitchen but she realized she just came back so basically there aren't foods stock in here so walk back to the living room again feeling lost and empty.

"The lunchbox." she exclaimed as she rush out to the front door with her bare feet.

She stared at the lunchbox that was in front of her. She's contemplating but her stomach growls again. "Fuck this." Minnie cursed as she opens it. As she opens it a lone tear escape her eyes then another one and another.

It was her favorite. Miyeon made her favorite food. She wiped her tears away. After their break up her mother and father had convinced her to go back to Thailand to heal herself. She was also aware that after their sad break up her kom hated Miyeon but she never hated the older.

She still loves her the same and she's still missing the older. She held the chopsticks as she takes a bite of the food. It was still the same. Same food, same lunchbox, and from the same person but the love that always brought them together was now gone.

She gripped the chopsticks tight. Her breathing was heavy she puts the lunchbox on the coffee table as she clench her dress shirt tightly. She can't breath. She stood up as she run up the stairs to find the cure but she can't find it.

"W-here the fuck did he put it?" he rummage through her closet to her drawer but it wasn't there. She fell on her knees breathing heavily. It was back and she knows it will always be with her. The day Miyeon left she became depressed. Miyeon was her sanctuary.

She pulled out her phone from her pocket. "Unnie." from the other line she was welcomed by Yuqi's deep voice. "Y-uqi c-an y-ou c-ome h-ere?" Minnie leaned her body on the side of the bed panting.

She was having her panic attacks and Miyeon was the cause of it. Yuqi on the other hand was already at the parking lot. She can hear Minnie's heavy breathing. "Stay on the line." Yuqi entered her car as she connects her phone to her car.

Stepping on the gas she was driving her car recklessly afraid that she might be late.

Minnie can't feel her fingers anymore. She was sweating hard and it was so hard to breath. She feels dizzy she closes her eyes slowly as she lets darkness consumed her.

Yuqi parked her car at the side as she opens the gate. Luckily the code to Minnie's front door was still the same making it easier for her. "Minnie unnie." she called out. She saw the lunchbox on the coffee table opened. She rush up the stairs knowing that Minnie could be inside her room and she was right.

She saw Minnie on the side of the bed with closed eyes. She felt scared for a moment. She kneels down as she checks Minnie's pulse. "She's still alive. " with all her strength she carried Minnie on her back struggling a little bit since Minnie was taller than her.

She placed the older inside the backseat as she drives to the nearest hospital. She was aware of what's happening to Minnie in those four years. She was aware how Minnie was lost and empty.

She felt a tear escape her eyes. 'She doesn't deserve any pain.' she thought as she stopped the car.

"What happened?" the nurse came running towards Yuqi. "She fainted from extreme panic attack." Yuqi answered as the nurse asks for a stretcher.

'White ceiling, white clothes, and white blanket. Where am I?'

Minnie felt a heavy wait on her hand and there she saw the goddess sleeping peacefully. She blinks her eyes repeatedly, pinching herself. "It isn't a dream." she mumbles as she stares at Miyeon.

She wants to hate her but she can't. She wants to blame her but she can't. She wants to run to her but she can't because once she feels comfortable again she'll lose herself and that's what she's afraid of. Losing herself once again for the same person.

But she can't deny that she missed Miyeon. Today was eventful. "You're still my one and only dahlia." She whispered not knowing that Miyeon was actually awake listening to her.

She held back her tears. Minnie felt Miyeon moving so she immediately closed her eyes.

"I love you." Miyeon said bravely. She knows that Minnie was awake. Minnie remained still with her eyes closed. "I'm sorry." Miyeon lowered her head.

"I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry if I left you when you needed me the most. I'm sorry that you had to go through all of this because of me." Minnie was just listening to her. She doesn't want to breakdown.

The door opened revealing Yuqi who was holding some plastic bags. "Miyeon unnie eat first. You haven't eaten anything since you got here." Minnie can hear some shuffling around.