Welcome to my playground || Kim Doyoung

I should've stayed

"Wait, I'm- I'm still a virgin"

"Oh, do you want me to stop? We can stop, I'll stop if you want me to"

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"We're here, Taeil must be worried," Taeyong said, another way of just telling Doyoung to hurry up. It's okay though, he understood that he wasn't the only one that had an issue last night. Taeyong and Ten had a lot to talk about now and he was excited for them.

"Hey, I know you've liked Ten for a while and I'm sure he likes you back ok? just tell him" Doyoung said, smiling at his best friend, trying to reassure him, Taeyong blushed, there was nothing you could hide from Doyoung.

"Thanks Doie" He smiled back.

The younger got out of the car, waving goodbye and wishing his friend luck.

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"Taeil hyung I'm home!" Doyoung announced, hoping his roommate was still here and not frantically searching for him all over town.

"Oh my God!! I've been texting you all day, I thought you might have stayed the night with Ten but I wrote to him and he also didn't reply, then I texted Taeyong and he ALSO didn't reply, I started to think y'all got kidnapped and sold to One Direction" Taeil ran towards him grabbing the tallers face and pulling him down inspecting him.

"Hyung don't be so dramatic, my phone was off, probably the same for them, also One Direction disbanded, but I highkey wouldn't have minded I mean have you seen Harry Styles, I'd let myself be sold to them" Doyoung said, hugging the older, happy to see him, Taeil was kind of like his family, his comfort zone, everything about him was just so... safe. 

"Damn rip One Direction, yall will be missed" Taeil said dramatically, drying his fake tears with one hand, while hugging the younger back with the other.

In that moment Doyoung noticed something off, the apartment was too quiet, too relaxed, someone was definitely missing, the person who completed their unconventional, small but cute family.

"Where's Haechan, did he come home last night?"

Taeil nodded. 

"He went out to look for you, that kid, he might tease you a lot but i think you're lowkey his favorite hyung, I should probably call him and tell him you're home" Doyoung pulled away nodding, letting the older go get his phone. 

"There's food on the table, I just made it so it should still be warm" Taeil points at the almost feast on their dining table. 

"Thanks hyung" He replied sitting down on the chair eyeing up the food, suddenly extremely hungry realizing he hadn't eaten anything at all yet, 'Damn how hospitable are they at that house' he thought sarcastically 'Probably because Jaehyun is the president'. 

God he really hopes it's not Jaehyun, that cocky asshole, probably would act so smug about it too. He started to think how he'd truly feel for each of them.

Johnny wasn't bad, he was good looking, smart, laid back, aside from Jaehyun he's the one Doyoung knew the best out of the five, he probably had a nice dick too, he blushed 'Stop thinking about that at the dining table Kim Doyoung, next person' 

Yuta wasn't so bad either, he's sexy, plays soccer, and he's the only one of them who actually says he's gay instead of 'just vibing', not that there's anything wrong with not wanting labels, but the way they say it is almost like they're just "spicy straight", Yuta's only straight characteristic is he's straight forward, he's fun, he'd be the best out of all he thinks.

Jaehyun, oh God no, not the cheater, but he guesses, if he really has to think about it, it wouldn't be so bad, Jaehyun is not bad looking regardless of how much of a dick he is, he used to have feelings for him too, maybe they started talking about that and one thing led to another... 'Ugh stop!' he shrugs at himself.

Lucas, God is Lucas hot, and strong and God the things he'd probably be able to do to him, 'WOAH there Doyoung! he's probably the straightest out of all of them... sadly' 

Mark, 'cute' he thinks, technically he knows Mark is not that much younger than Lucas, and he has to admit Mark makes him feel happy, being the only person who's nice to him 24/7, but he doesn't think he's ever seen him like THAT specifically, he's not against it though, Mark is basically good at everything, definitely looks included, maybe sex included too 'Oh God let me just stop myself there'.

He made a mental list of most to least likely, first- 

"Ya! Kim Dongyoung!" 

Oh no he's here.

"Heachan don't talk to your hyung like that" He heard Taeil scold.

"Where in the hell were you hyung? Taeil made me stop my game to go look for you, do you know how angry Renjun is at me right now?" The oldest of the three chuckled knowing it wasn't true, Haechan had been begging him to let him go look for him, even hanging up on his boyfriend when he finally said yes, Renjun wasn't even mad, he understood his boyfriend's and Doyoung's relationship, in fact Renjun and Doyoung had been getting along quite well recently, even if they were a bit awkward at first.

Doyoung started tearing up, all the events of the day came crashing down. 

"Hey, hey, why are you crying, no, no, I'm sorry, none of that was true hey, don't cry" Haechan said, dropping to his knees beside his hyung.

"I- I don't know, I-" He kept crying, he wasn't upset, crying was just a way his body knew to relieve stress, even if it was unconventional at times.

"What's wrong?" Haechan repeated.

"Bitch, I told you I don't know" Doyoung said, it was lighthearted. He laughed at himself. He felt ridiculous right now, in the 'I'm a clown' kind of way. Haechan laughed with him.

"Well something must've happened"

"Well I hooked up with someone and- and I can barely remember anything, God everytime I try my head just hurts so much, I think I'm just stressed about it" He replied, drying his stray tears.

"Doyoung but you're-" Taeil interrupted, the youngest one shaking his head to make the older stop, he didn't think that would make his hyung feel any better.

"Was" Doyoung said "I don't really care about that, I just wish I remembered, or at least knew with who, I have small flashbacks you know? I don't think I was forced into anything, I remember saying yes, I remember wanting it, but- but nothing else" 

"What about Ten and Taeyong? Maybe they saw something?" Haechan asked softly as to not stress the boy out even more. 

"They don't remember much either, and the things they do remember don't help me, they left half way into the beer pong game" He saw Haechan frown, his eyes filled with guilt.

"I should've stayed, me and Renjun hadn't had much to drink, we could've done something, we would've done something" 

"Don't blame yourself Haechannie it's not that I regret it ok? I'm not upset that it happened, I'm upset that I can't remember, you couldn't have brought my memory back even if you were there, I don't think you could've stopped me either" He replied, comforting the younger now instead of himself. He wasn't lying though, if he could just remember, if his hookup could remember, everything would be fine. 

"Hey let's eat together, all of us, I kind of also wanna get out of these clothes so let's finish this meal so I can finally shower, I smell like a frat house" Doyoung said scrunching up his nose, making Taeil and Haechan giggle. 

"Ok, let's eat"

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Repeat after me: Taeil and Haechan best boys

Short chapter but next one will be longer I promise <3

Renhyuck is also so underrated omg

Chapter inspired by: Dohyuck relationship