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i put so much time into him, i was texting him all day every day for FOUR FUCKING MONTHS. i had never felt that way about anybody. I would do anything for him. I CONSIDERED GIVING HIM ALL OF ME. I thought I was special to him, i thought i meant something to him, all those late night conversations. All those kisses meant nothing to him and that's what broke me even worse, because all those kisses meant the world to me. I loved that I could be my true self around him. I wasted all that time on him and for what? I WAS IN LOVE WITH HIM. I LEFT MY HOTEL JUST TO SEE HIM. I WAS SO VULNERABLE AROUND HIM. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. IT HURTS ME TO HATE HIM BUT BEING IN LOVE WITH HIM STILL IS WORSE. He threw that all away, i could have gave him the world. All for a dirty blonde bitch. which is clearly not doing her job right because he texts me once a month that he misses me. But I know my worth and I respect myself not to go back, but it still hurts so fucking much.
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my sad life
Non-Fictionjust me and my rants and my mediocre life please help me lmaooooo, might end it all who knows 5/2/23 #13 in #killyourself LMAO 5/5/23 #7 in #thoughtbook
