Under the moonlight

The child in me

I remember the child in me

She lays awake at night not allowing me to sleep

I listen to songs to drown her cries so that I don't have tear-stained pillows for my cheeks

I remember the child in me

I lost her when I grew up

And killed her when the pain became my best friend

All the heartbreaks

All the tears

All the screams

All the fears

She still walked like as if nothing happened

She repaired my heart, fixing it making it brand new

Only I break it over and over again

Now shes getting weak

And I can tell she fading

But at the back of my mind, I see her dancing around a garden

Picking roses and daisies

She looks so happy

The smile always looks good on her

But then I see her sitting at a well

And then I realised

The child in me is dying

She is my heart

And she breaking down

After years of fixing herself to ensure I don't feel the blow of the pain, she made sure my walls were sealed up

Now my walls are still sealed up

but she is getting weaker

And last night

I feel my heart breaking; physically

The child in me is always present

Even though she is weak

She whispers to me softly

No matter what

I will fix it

No matter how much I bleed