I Can't Get Away

chapter 14

I wake up and the memories of last night fill my head causing me to smile, I was still a little sore this morning but nothing to bad, I look over at Jayson still asleep. I rest my head on his chest and with my finger I trace his tattoos all the way down his abs, to his V line, and at the waistband of his pants I rest my hand. "You can go further princess" he says as he catches me. I give him a playful smack. He pulls me on top of him so I'm just laying on him. I am still naked from the night before he however has his pants on. I kiss him passionately, he doesn't protest as I slip my tounge into his mouth intensifying the kiss. He grabs my face to pull me away from him. I frown at him to his amusement.  "What am I going to do with you, this wasnt my plan." He says not showing any emotion.

"It wasnt my plan either" I sit up now straddling him, he takes this opportunity to sit up as well. We are now face to face, I try to search his eyes for any hint of his mood, he rests his hands on my hips as I continue to speak. "I was supposed to get away, I spent three years in fear, then that day Zach kidnapped me..." my voice trails off while my eyes fill with tears. He brings on hand to cup my cheek, his thumb rubbing calming circles on my skin. "He threatened my best friend, I was terrified, then he brought me to you. For weeks all I saw from you was anger, then we got past that, I realized that I wanted you. I realized that maybe I didnt want to go back home. " he looks at me confused.

"You gave up?" His face now showing concern.

"Not really," I'm not for sure what to say after this but hes still looking at me expectantly. "I have things back home, I have a bestfriend, I have an amazing boyfriend," his grip on my hips tighten at my words, "but other than that, I have nothing to go back to, I love them I really do, but my life has no purpose there." I explain to him.

He looks at me softly, "and you've found your purpose here?" He questions. I think about it for a moment. 

"Yes, well kinda." I stare away in embarrassment. I feel his gaze on me.

"I like the part where you said you wanted me." He smiles mischievously. I lean into him and kiss him never wanting to pull away. He throws me down on the bed hovering over me. "You're so fucking beautiful." He growls while looking at me hungrily. He brings his lips down and starts attacking my neck. Small moans escape my mouth while his hands provide the much needed to my nipples. I wanted to be on top, even though I'd never had sex, I knew I was a top. He starts planting kisses leading down there. He looks at me for concent to which I nod. He begins working wonders with his tounge as I grab his hair pulling him impossibly closer. Without warning his fingers plunge deep inside of me making my back arch his other hand pushing me back down. "Fuck Jayson" my body is getting closer then he stops and kisses me deeply. While hes distracted I take this opportunity to flip positions me now on top of his growing member. He is shocked, "I much prefer top, sorry." I smile at him.

"I'm not complaining babygirl" I blush at his comment. I undo his pants pulling both his Jean's and boxers down painfully slow. I quickly take him in my mouth forgetting about my own needs. He immediately grabs my hair face fucking me. I gag and this only seems to please him more. He moans only making me wetter. I stop and get on top of him aligning my entrance with his member. I grind on him a little driving him wild. "Get on the bed, face down ass up." He growls while I obey, I dont like being told what to do normally but in the bedroom it was okay. My face is pressed to the sheets, my ass in the air. He grabs a fistful of my hair and tugs hard "you still want me to show you the difference in love making and fucking" he says tempting me. I wasnt for sure if I was ready but I was going crazy with desire.

"Yes" I tell him giving him permission. He only yanks harder on my hair, "yes what" he teases my entrance until I get it right. "Yes daddy". Without warning he slams into me causing me to grip the edge of the bed. He is pounding into me non stop, I love it. "You're so damn tight" he moans between breaths. When I get enough composure I also move my hips to meet each one of his thrust. My body goes weak as my legs shake signaling my orgasim, he cums at the same time as me. He slowly pulls out after he cums in me. He lay back down in bed to cuddle. "I enjoyed both but I now get the difference" he chuckles.

"Dammit, dammit" he suddenly panics. "What is your problem" I ask him not knowing what could possibly be wrong in this moment. "I didnt pull out last night or today" nothing but fear is written on his face. I laugh and he pushes me away, "you're ready to be a parent? Cause I sure as hell aint" hes mad but I cant help but laugh.

"I cant get pregnant " I look up at him, his face turns from anger to confusion so I explain more, "I have severe POCS so I had about a 98% chance of getting pregnant anyways, but the pain was so bad that I had a hysterectomy." He looks blindly at me.

"I'm so sorry Jasmine, that must be aweful." He says whilst pulling me closer.

"No, I never wanted kids anyway, but I can have sex without worry so that's a plus." I smile trying to lighten the subject. I intertwine our fingers bringing his hand up to my face and kissing his hand. "I think I love you" I mumble to where I hope he cant hear me. I know he doesnt feel the same way back but I knew I loved him. He doesnt respond, he probably couldnt hear me anyways but it hurts a bit. I roll over and let sleep take me.

She used the L word, what do yall think, let me know please. I hope yall are liking it. 🖤