I Can't Get Away

chapter 19

I wake up and I immediately groan when I tried to move. I was in pain all due to how rough Justin had been. I look to my side hoping to see Jayson then I hear the shower running so I do the best I can to get up without causing much pain. When I'm outside of the bathroom I remove my clothes painfully. I needed to burn those clothes. I enter and I'm surprised by the person looking at me in the mirror. She was noticeable but she wasnt the same me I used to know. I was loosing weight and I was covered in bruises most of them looking like handprints.  The spot on my forehead was healing but it didnt look good yet. I slip in the shower behind Jayson and wrap my arms around him with him facing away from me. He removes my arms and turns to face me. His eyes scan up and down my body but not in the good way. He was looking at my bruises, I figured he would look worse than me but he had no bruises or cuts anymore.

"I'm so sorry I couldn't protect you" he says while looking away, he wouldnt even look at me. I see why Justin would have chose this punishment.

I grab his face forcing him to look at me. "There's nothing you could have done, we survived, that's all that matters." After a while of silence I decide to speak up again, "how can I make this up to you."

He closes his eyes and shakes his head, "you didnt do anything wrong, this wasnt your fault." He finally brings himself to touch me, he cups my face in his hands, "do not apologize for his actions" he tells me sternly. I rest my head on his chest feeling it rise and fall.

"I'll be fine but, you'll never look at me the same again" I say while trying to conceal my tears. He stares at me with pained eyes considering his next words carefully.

"I dont know if I will, but it wont be because I'm mad at you. And dont say that you're fine, you were fucking raped!" He screams then his fist collides with the shower wall behind me. I let out a small yelp but quickly gain my composure grabbing his face making him look at me. But I didnt know what to say so I step out of the shower, wrap a towel around me, and leave. I hear the water turn off as he leaves the shower as well. I have my bra and underwear on by the time he comes out of the bathroom. He starts walking towards me, hes only in his boxers, but the closer he gets the further I back up until my back connects with the wall.

"Move" I tell him sternly but he doesnt "please, I-I cant do this" the tears finally drop. He quickly wipes them away.

"Jasmine I'm sorry please dont be scared of me." He pleads with me. Scared? I wasnt scared of him.

"I'm not scared of you, you wouldnt ever hurt me." I state and he releases a sigh of relief. "I get that you're hurt, but this didnt just happen to you it happend to me. I want to forget, everytime you walk towards me I see his face and that's terrifying, he took something that he knew would impact us but we cant let him. Because that fact is that I love you, I dont regret my choice because you are still alive and that's all that matters to me." He finally backs up but I pull him back into me. I kiss him like my life depended on it, apparently his did with the way responded to it. He pulls away only for a moment to apologize then his lips take mine again then he kisses down to my neck causing me to moan. The metaphorical breaks go off in my head. "I cant do this, not yet" I say catching my breath. He stops without hesitation.

"I know babygirl" he gives a forced smile. I hate that I cant give him what he needs but I knew he understood. "You wanna swim in the heated pool? I bet that would help you feel better" he suggest. I nod with big smile and quickly change into my bikini. Its black with a gold sparkle to it, and it barely covered anything. I noticed how he watched me while changing into his swim trunks. He leads me downstairs then I see the others sitting on the couch.

"Shit" I mumble realizing I dont have enough clothes on to see them. They all snap their heads in my direction, Ace and Alex jump up from the couch. Ace wraps me in a tight hug. I didnt really know him but I knew he was the sweet one in the group so I return his hug until it gets too tight.

"Back off" Jayson says, not rudely but he knew it hurt me. He does apologizing many times as he looks at the bruises on my body. River has also joined them standing infront of me looking at my body making me uncomfortable.

"Damn yall got rough last night didnt yall?" River asks making me cringe.

I walk to him and punch him with all my might causing his head to turn to the side. "I was raped you sick bastard" I yell at him. This sets him him off and he throws my body to the ground and kicks me. Before I know it Jayson is on top of him beating the fuck out of him, but its obvious that River is stronger and flips to where hes beating Jayson. I get up even though it hurts. I grab Rivers arm and scream for him to stop, he slows for a moment looking at me, he nods and backs off handing Jayson his hand to help him up, he takes it reluctantly. "I'm sorry I didnt mean to cause that" I say at barley a mumble.

"I'm sorry I didnt know" River apologized. I nod and head off the the pool with Jayson folling me. I jump into the warm water with all my muscles relaxing when I rise from the water Jayson is already in front of me.

"How did you do that" he asks as he wraps my legs around himself.

"Do what" I ask confusingly as I wrap my arms around his neck and run my fingers through his hair.

He smiles only slightly than it fades "get him to stop, no one ever gets him to stop or even consider stopping what hes doing."

I think for a moment, was I really the only one ever to stop him? I shrug my shoulders "I dont know, I just looked at him and begged."

He frowns "in all the years I've known my brother that's never happened. "

"Brother?! Hes your brother?" I ask very surprised, he simply nods like it was common knowledge. "Okay, well I'm glad I could stop him. He could have hurt you"

He scoffs like I just told a lie but even he knew that River could beat him. He pushes me to the pool walls kissing my neck again. I push my hips to meet his feeling his hard on against me. His fingers enter my bathing suit bottoms causing me to gasp. "Is this okay" he asks with his fingers at my entrance.

"Fuck yes" I tell him causing him to smile as his fingers enter me causing me to arch my back. In the water my body didnt hurt so I could take it. He pumps his fingers in and out of me quickly causing me to moan uncontrollably I grip his hair harder causing a groan to escape his lips. He was getting pleasure just seeing me come undone. Within a few more thrust my eyes were rolling back and I had reached my climax. I kiss him and take his hand pulling him out of the pool to where he was sitting on the edge and I was in front of him. I rub him teasingly while staring into his eyes. "Your turn" I smile while pulling down his swim shorts taking him in my mouth. I swirl my tounge around him causing him to moan. He starts to grab my hair but decides against in fear of being to rough. Still sucking I grab his hand and put it to the back of my head giving him permission. He wastes no time pushing my head down using my mouth as he pleases. I was 100% okay with that as I felt his hot liquid shooting down my throat. I smile and pull him back into the water. Looking at this man I knew I found the love of my life.

I know it's been a little bit but here ya go