I FOUND | MP

NINE

NARRATIVE
IMESSAGE
❝and i found love where it wasn't supposed to be.❞

ORIANA
tw! self harm

i stood in front of my mirror staring at myself as tears streamed down my face. was i really about to do this?

my shaking hand slowly made its way to the sharp blade on the counter. i lifted up my sleeve and hesitantly brought the blade to my forearm.

i gulped score putting pressure onto the skin. firstly, i let out a wince as the blood dripped out of the fresh cut. i thought this guy said it didn't hurt?

as my thoughts trailed i began to think about that friday night. the date. the taxi ride. his fingers. the driver who watched as it happened and did nothing about it and the pain on my arm slowly faded away.

i looked back down at my arm and ran the blade across it again and this time i didn't really feel anything because all the pain was in my chest.

i did it two more times before my phone started ringing. i jumped at the sound of it and dropped the blade into the sink and turned the tap on and washed the blood off of my arm and the blade. i then put the blade away and got a bandage and put it on the four cuts.

my phone had stopped ringing and i walked into my bedroom. i grabbed the phone off of the bed and looked at the lock screen that was a picture of mattia and i as kids.

24 miss(ed) call(s) from, mattia

2 message (s) from, naya

i sighed and swiped naya's contact and read the message she sent.

naya

today at 2:22pm

hey!

did u go home early?

yeah

my stomach was hurting and i couldn't deal with it lol

ok. if u need anything just phone or text one of us.

thank you! <3

no problem <333

oh and mattia is trying to phone u. he's going crazy.

ok i'll message him now. love you

love u too

tia

today at 2:30pm

yes?

where the fuck are you?

i was waiting by your class so we could walk to lunch together but the teacher told me you never showed up.

that's because i went home. my stomach was hurting still.

ugh! ima boutta beat the shit out of ur stomach

always getting in the way of things. i wanna spend time with my best friend but no, your stomach has to take u away from me 🙄