I FOUND | MP

TEN

NARRATIVE
SOCIAL MEDIA
❝right in front of me.❞

one month later
ORIANA

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mattia was laying his head on my lap, asleep as i ran my fingers through his hair.

he had just been bawling his eyes out. even though he handled it well on social media i could just tell he was hurting inside and it made my heart break seeing him upset.

it had been a month since the sexual assault and i've been forcing a smile on my face.

i've been going to school and avoiding theo. he's messaged me a couple times asking if want to go on a date with him again but i've just ignored him.

i don't know how much longer i can keep this to myself. it's weighing me down. it's like somebody put a tone of bricks onto my back and said 'here you go, have this on your back for the rest of your life until you tell someone what happened.'

i haven't been eating and if i had i'd just throw it up. every time i look at myself in the mirror all i seem to see is me on that friday night, wearing the exact thing i wore but i wasn't smiling. i had tears running down my cheeks and there was a blood stain on my crotch area.

i think mattia is starting to notice about my weight loss because when i would go to school he'd take second glances at me and sigh as he looks away.

i'm not sure about my other friends. naya doesn't really hang out with us anymore, none of us know where she goes at lunch and break. kairi and amira just talk to each other, alejandro sometimes shows up to school and when he doesn't we don't know what he's doing. roshaun and alvaro went back to florida.

so it's just mattia and i.

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it was the next day and mattia ended up sleeping over. i was wrapped in the covers staring up at the ceiling. i had been awake for awhile now. all i had been doing was thinking. mattia was laying next to me, fast asleep. his gentle snores filled the room.

i felt his hand wrap around my waist as he tucked his head into the crook of my neck.

i brought my hand up and played with his hair. i then felt him trace patterns on my clothed stomach.

i don't know why i felt like this but i felt as if i was safe. i'm not saying i never feel safe around mattia, but this sort of safe feels tingly and weird. it feels like you're going over those hills in the countryside and it's makes your stomach flutter. the feeling makes me want to just kiss him.

shit. why am i thinking like this? he's my best friend and he's just gotten out of a relationship.

mattia slowly pulls up the baggy t-shirt and some of my bare skin is exposed. he continues to do the same with his fingers and even more butterflies erupt in my stomach.

why does he have this effect on me? i need it to stop.

i grabbed my phone from the nightstand and turned it on. i went onto some social media, answered messages and just played a game while i waited for mattia to wake up.

after a while, i heard mattia groan and turn around so that his back was facing me and then he sat up and wiped his eyes and yawned before turning and facing me.

he smiled and opened his arms up. i chuckled and rolled my eyes before sitting up like him and hugging him.

"good morning." his groggy voice spoke.

"good morning." i whisper into his chest.

we eventually pull apart and his phone starts ringing. he rolled his eyes and read the contact aloud. "it's kairi."

i nod and watch as he answers it.

once he hangs up, he stands up and walks into the bathroom across the hallway and brushes his teeth with a toothbrush he kept over here.

he then returns and starts putting on his shoes. "do you want to go to the cinema with kai, amira, naya, ale and i?" he asks and i go to shake my head no, but he puts his hands on my shoulders.

"forget i asked," he smiled and grabbed my hands, pulling me up from the bed. "you're coming. wether you like it or not."

i groan and shake my head. "no, i think i'm just going to stay in today."

mattia slowly closed his eyes and let's put a huff and then re-opens them. "nope. get up. come on."

i let out a giggle as he picks me up from the bed and stands me in front of my dresser.

he opens the top drawer and gets out some underwear and then goes to the next one and gets out a bra. he then kneels down to the bottom one where my t-shirts were and got out a white, cropped polo shirt and then got out some black jeans from the drawer above it.

"here. go change into these." he said and handed me the clothes. "oh, and wear these shoes." he wiggled his eyebrows as he held up a pair of white air force ones.

i roll my eyes. "whatever boss." i then walk into the bathroom and change.

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