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thirty nine

DRAFT;;

i'd open this with hi world; but realistically i'm never publishing this. ever.

i'm literally in his bed writing this. i'm having to use my phone...i don't even have my laptop with me. but it doesn't matter, because i've been so preoccupied with him today - no, correction, for the last couple of days.

it's been him. just him. and i haven't minded, because being around him makes me so happy, in a way i'm not even sure i can express through writing.

i came back to his today, and he let us watch spiderman...well, it was mostly just me because he fell asleep half way through, but it's okay, he looks so cute, and peaceful. i think i'm going to let him stay there. 

it hit me, today. i made a revelation, if you like. i realised that i'm slowly starting to fall in love with him - or maybe i already do love him. and the thought is scary as fuck because we aren't even a couple. we've only had one date, only had one kiss. but from the pure emotional connection i've made with him over the course of a couple of months, it's safe to say i think i might love him. 

not that i'll ever tell him or anything...imagine if he doesn't feel the same way??? if i'm feeling all these emotions way too quickly...

i don't think i could handle being rejected. i love him too much to even think about losing him. above all he's my best friend, and now that i have him i can't imagine life without him. i can't imagine not talking to him everyday. not getting butterflies when he says my name. or even a simple notification from him. 

fuck! i'm in love. 

signing off. 

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DRAAAMMMAAAA