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twenty two

MJISWRITING'S DRAFTS

hello world, 

i'm not even sure if i'm going to post this one. i think it's highly likely it'll stay in the drafts, but i need to get something off of my chest. rather, quite a lot of things. 

so, i guess i'm in the talking stage with someone right now???? but it doesn't feel like the talking stage...it doesn't feel forced, or anything like that. it feels so - natural! more natural than anything i've ever experienced before. 

he's my best friend, that's certain. i know i can trust him with literally anything, and i do! i do trust him with everything. he knows some of my deepest, darkest secrets. he knows things that even my sister doesn't. how crazy is that??

i feel like...there could be a future there. with him in it. but i don't want to rush anything. because he is TOO important to be rushed. i don't want to do anything that could risk him. he is too special to me. 

god, i don't even know if he thinks of me how i think of him. i think that's why i won't say anything. i guess he's hinted at it before, but he has a flirty personality. he might just have been trying to flirt???

i don't know!!!! this is so confusing!!! my brain feels like complete mush. 

i just want someone to tell me what to do. that's all i want :(

i just wish he'd make a move. or friendzone me. at this point i'd take anything that would indicate to me how he feels towards me. because right now we aren't going anywhere, and it's the opposite of what i want. 

bye world, 

mj.