hello, anon | salia

fifty two

SIMON.

"so why did you forget to tell me that i basically had a girlfriend?" i ask, walking into the kitchen, where all the other guys were, including jj. 

jj's eyes widened, choking slightly on the piece of toast he had been chewing. the room was silent, and i could tell from vik and josh's expressions that they were surprised too. 

"simon, look, you got into an accident! you were confused, and couldn't -"

"you don't think i know? i am well and fucking truly aware of what happened! it's been accident this, can't remember that! i want to remember! i don't want to forget!" i snapped, my fist coming down on the countertop, creating a loud bang that startled vik. 

"simon, calm down," josh intervened, standing up, turning all attention to him. i looked across at the three of them, vik looked petrified, jj looked upset and even josh looked disappointed. 

this wasn't who i was. i wasn't like this. i didn't act like this. i could remember that. 

"jide, vik, give us a moment," josh instructed, and they didn't need telling twice. in a matter of seconds, it was just the two of us in the kitchen. 

"simon, talk to me," he said quietly. 

"i feel so...angry, josh. it feels like someone has entered my brain and stolen a bunch of my memories! mine! i want them back! i want to know what's happened over the last couple of months."

"i know you're angry, and you have every right to be angry, but focus that anger on something other than shouting at your friends. we're here to help you, simon."

"but i don't get why he failed to tell me about talia, not when she came to visit me in hospital and everything!"

"i'm not sure if i'm the right person to tell you this, but you need to hear it. talia walked out of the hospital, simon. she walked out with no intent of ever coming back, but jide talked to her. he's the one who persuaded her to come back, to talk to you. to try and help you remember."

"he - she - what?"

"go easy on him - on them both. it was hard on them both, seeing you in hospital. not knowing who she was, it was hard. and that's coming from me."

"well, thanks for telling me, i guess. i'm sorry for going off on one," i say, lowering my head. 

"don't apologise to me. apologise to jj and vik. they need it more than i do," he tells me, leaving the kitchen shortly after. 

he's right. i do need to apologise to them both. regardless of what had happened, nothing gave me the right to treat my best friends like that. ever.