A Smile Full Of Broken Glass

A Very Confusing 5 Minutes

I feel so tired,
And so alone.
Nobody knows,
And it's starting to show.
I hide my feelings.
I hide my fear.
What if the ones I love won't be near?
In the time that my light begins to fade,
And I don't have enough strength to put down the blade.
And my tears have worn paths down my cheeks,
And I haven't showered in many weeks.
I hate it that I need to be assured that everyone doesn't hate me,
And even worse is that I am not sure if anyone could want to date me.
I'm pathetic and ugly and gawky and tall,
I look like I could win a brawl!
If only people really knew,
It isn't a lie.
My sadness is true.
I would not lie about such a thing,
But nobody really believes me.
I've given up on the smiles and rhymes,
These words only cover my many years of pain and anger and sadness and tears.
The rhymes still come as natural as breathing.
And I can't stop, however the words are seething.
Through my mind and out my hands,
And missing are all my rubber bands.