Terrible Things

Chapter 4

I haven't been on here for forever. I"m really sorry. My computer is down and so I'm writing right now. I'll be starting another story soon. I just need suggestions. I thank all of you that have stayed with me and I hope you enjoy the rest of the story.

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Alex and I had been dating for 3 years now and I was going to pop the question. I had invited her to an elegant restaurant tonight.

"Mom, how do I look?" I yelled running down the steps.

"Sweetheart, calm down. Alex loves you! I doubt she cares what you look like. You look amazing of course."

Sighing gently I bounce over to her and kiss her on the cheek. She had supported our relationship and my decisions 100%. I loved my mother, a lot.

I bound out the door and to my car. I was so excited. Tonight would be the night I seal the deal with my beautiful Alex. I couldn't wait to officially be able to call her mine. I pull the black velvet ring box out of my pocket and open it up. The beautiful 20 karat gold ring's diamond shown in the moonlight. I gasped at it's beauty.

I slowly pull out of the drive way and make my way to my soon to be fiance's house.

10 Minutes Later

I bounded up the steps to Alex's house and ring the door bell. After waiting for a few seconds the door opens and Alex stands there. Something's wrong though. She isn't dressed up and it looks like she's been crying.

"Alex.. What's wrong. Why are you crying?' I step into the house and pull her into me. She does nothing but cry for a long time. I'm worried. I've never seen her like this. She has never cried around me, not like this.

She looks up at me with tearful eyes and mumbles the worlds

"I'm dying."

My eyes start tearing up and my hearts racing. I can't talk, I can't breathe. I can't feel.

"I'm-"

I put my fingers against her lips.

"Don't.. Please, don't say it again." I mutter, sinking to my knees. Tears blur my vision and my body shakes. I can feel her arms around me but I am not here.

"I'm dying of cancer. The same thing my brother did. I figured it would happ-"

Jumping up I kick over the lamp and scream. Profanities and what not fly from my mouth. What had I done to deserve this? Nothing. I had been good. Why did bad things happen to bad people? I never understood that.

"Jalex please calm down." She pleads, pulling me into her. I collapse into her and we fall on the couch together. Her across my chest and my fingers in her hair.

"I love you. Alexarah. I love you so much. I won't love anyone else. I can't... When did you find out?'

"A few weeks ago. I didn't want to tell you so soon. I wanted to wait for a better time, but I felt guilty. You would talk about growing older and having kids and I know I can't do that. So I decided tonight would be the best time. I want you to know that I love you. I've never loved anyone quite like you. But you have to promise me that you will move on. Any girl would be lucky to have you. I want someone to experience what you have given me. " She looks up at me and a little tears escapes from her eye.

I sigh gently and think about that. I wasn't sure if I could do that. I didn't know if I wanted to do that. Shaking my head I carrase her face gently.

"I could never do that. I only want you. I just hope you understand."

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So hat's the end. Kinda crappy, but there you have it. If you have any suggestions, please telll me.