Terrible Things

Introduction

I was so excited when I turned 13. I was finally able to call myself a teenager. My brother had told me of this beautiful thing called 'love'. He said it was a beautiful thing and that'd he'd been in love since he was 15. (He was 17) He talked of all the beautiful things his girlfriend and he did. I couldn't wait to fall in love myself.

I wanted to be able to go on dates and I wanted my heart to smile like his did. I wanted children of my own someday. He always talked about children and how excited he would be when she finally got pregnant. He didn't tell me about the negative things though. The fighting they did sometime. He didn't tell me that love didn't stop someoine from getting sick.

He never told me what the heartbreak would feel like and oh I wish he did. The agonizing pain when you think of them at night and can't reach for them. Their voice haunting your dreams forever.  Your will to live just gone and there's nothing that can be done about it. So you see, love is nothing to feel happpiness about. Love should be avoided. Anything can happen to them or you. Death could take them, they could cheat on you, their feelings for you could disappear and so much more.

It could happen so sudden. They're with you one day and gone the next. They'd leave nothing but empty memories and broken promises. You'll sit and stare at your texts and notes, wishing to hold them just one more time.

The day comes, and you watch the light slowly leave their eyes. Listening to the beeping of the monitor go flat. Falling to your knees as the doctors try to bring her back to you. But you know in your heart she is gone from you forever and ever. Her smile won't light up your world anymore. Her laughter won't make your day worth getting through.

The days pass and you'll be dead inside, not caring what happens, because she left. She left you forever. First will be anger. Why would she do that to you? Didn't she love you? You'll break everything and hurt yourself in the process. Mentally and physically. Next will be just hurt and depression. Crying everynight. Feeling worthless, as if life hates you..

Last will be a sense of numbess. Only the numbess..