Harry Styles Imagines

Don't let me go...(P.3)

Harry's P.O.V

It's been 3 whole weeks. 3 weeks since I've held her in my hands. 3 weeks since I haven't tasted her cherry lips. 3 weeks since I reminded her that she was mine and mine only...I know the mistakes's mine, I know I never deserved her, but she deserves someone better.

I've tried moving on...Have I? I convinced myself I  have. The thought of letting her go completely horrified me. What if she doesn't want us to be friends anymore? What if she hates me? What if she doesn't want me to be in her life anymore? Maybe that's why she hasn't asked about me in a while or came to see me or come back home to take her things or...or maybe...maybe sort things out...

I feel a tear roll down my face along with a few other. My hands begin to shake again, that same feeling of my heart being clutched again wires begins to rise. I should be used to it now, I feel it everyday since she left. My breath hitched. I'm normally alone when this happens, but the boys will be around today...My...my head hurts...my heart hurts...if only she would be here.

Louis's P.O.V

"It's alright Y/N" I hugged her. I went to Y/N's house as I normally did every other day, just to check in and make sure she's better. I know she still loves him, I know she'll do anything she has to to save his life of she had to to, but all she needs right now is Harry. Me and the boys decided to keep this whole "I want you back" thing for a secret. It's better for the both of them, especially Y/N. She deals with so much hate every day, she has a job and uni...Harry's mistakes are the last thing she has to deal with and add to her pile.

"I just...I just want him to be happy...with or without me..." She sighed, wiping another tear off of her pale face, her nose red as a rose, which was quite normal when she cried. "Just take care of him Lou...and...and if you ever need me, give me a call...tell him that too..." "C'mon Y/N, you're acting as if we're not gonna be seeing you again tomorrow." "Harry won't." "Harry...I'll tell Harry. I'll get going then, I'm quite hungry, lunch's still in the car." She smiled a little and nodded. "What is it?" "Eh, basic Mc D's, you know how it is." I nudged her shoulder. She just shook her head and chuckled, then waved from the door as I drived back to Harry's. I need to pick up Niall and Liam from the studio.

Niall's P.O.V

"How's she?" "Wasn't crying when I went in..." "Did she later?" "Yeah..." "I feel quite guilty hiding everything." "We're trying to do what's best for both of our friends Liam. Maybe they'll move on, maybe they'll realise that they need each other THAT much and go back to each other without us acting like bridges...Now get out, we're here, just say we went to get out some food." "He knows that Niall..."

"Harry open up-" "The door's open..." "Wait what- HARRY?! ARE YOU OKAY?!" I ran in to see Harry on the sofa, his face buried under his shaky hands, loud whimpers and cries echoing in the silence now replaced by chaos. "Harry!" "I-I-I can't do this anymore Niall...I f*cking miss her so much I can't...I just...can't...bear..." "Harry you can't even breathe please...please calm down she'll...Louis call her." "But...Okay."

Your P.O.V

I took my guitar and strumming on it pointlessly as my tears slowly rolled down, memories of how he would smile and dance around the kitchen and play little tunes and songs on the piano flashing in my head. Such great treasures...aaand inturrupted. Who's calling...Louis?

"Hey-"  "You need to come NOW." "What-" "NOW Y/N PLEASE It'S URGENT-" "OKAY WAIT WHERE-" "AT...At Harry's" "What?!" "Please." "I...but...okay..." The line went off, and I just stood there for a minute. Why should I go there...what's so urgent? I looked at my outfit. Black sweat pants, a long sleeve blue shirt. I just took the red hoodie I left on the chair last night and started to drive to Harry's. It was a 20 minute drive. Just.20.Minutes.

But time hasn't gone slower and my heart hasn't beat faster.

I rang the bell and the door was unbolted almost immediately. "Hey-" "Y/N Harry's in a bad state." "What?" "He...I've never seen him like this.Just...just see for yourself." He moved from the way and I saw Harry sitting on the sofa, crunched up and as I moved closer I could her whimpers and see him hands pale and shivering...

I just went near him  and held his head close to my stomach. I knelt down on the sofa as he pulled me closer  and covered his face in my shirt, holding me tight, crying out words and whispering and shaking and...WHAT IS HAPPENING?! What if this is all just a drama? That doesn't add up...I thought he hated me...

"I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry don't go don't go" He kept whispering over and over again. I've dealt with a similar Harry before, but this is just...

"I'm right here Haz...lay down..." I moved down on to the sofa and rested my head on the arm and Harry's head to my chest. He was still crying, but he was trying to calm himself down too. "I'm right here...Go to sleep..." "Y-You won't go?" "I won't go..." he sniffled again as he dug back into my arms. I turned my head to Liam standing a few feet away from the sofa. 

'I'm sorry' I make out as he mouths. Louis took a bite out of his burger and Niall took a chip. "Explain?" I whispered. "We thought It'd be better for the both of you if you didn't know the truth." I sighed and turned my head back and laid on to Harry's curls. Still overwhelmed by how I was just crying about how much I missed him, so surprised that I forgot to cry...almost.

Harry's P.O.V

I slowly fluttered my eyes open, only to have it to be blinded by bright lights. What a dream...Y/N right beside me, kissing my forehead, taking care of me...feels weird when what once was a reality is turned into a dream. "Finally! woke up after 3 hours...how do you feel Harry?" "Just weird...had a bit of a dream..." I can smell something so familiar. A scent I feel like I know like the back of my hand but yet so...missed? Wait... "Who lit up the candles?" I asked, pointing at the plum and cream coloured candles on the table across the room, a soothing mix of vanilla and berries. It was Y/N's. She loved candles and lit it up at least 3 times a week and said how "this is what heaven must smell like" though it was something different every time. But this was a classic. What she lit up when she just wants to relax and be happy. "Who lit up the candles?"

"I did." A different voice spoke up this time, my head snapped back." "Y/N?!...Y/N!" I ran to her and pulled her into my arms and hugged her tight, my eyes shut tight, my heart racing, hoping this wasn't a dream... "I'm sorry..." "It's okay Haz." "It wasn't a dream? Did you actually come and told me that you won't go wearing clothes with that same perfume of yours?" "I guess so..." I just picked her up and twirled her in the air, just to hear her shriek and laugh. She hugged me again. "I swear I missed you so much." "I did too...but when you didn't come or text or call I thought you hated me..." "I did too, blame these 3 idiots for that." I looked at the boys and saw them look in different directions. Of course. 

I can always learn why they did that but this...

...she in my arms, next to me, knowing that she wouldn't go and be there for me...

This was heaven to me.