Harry Styles Imagines

Choose and you lose

Harry's P.O.V

Why did I have to do this?

Why should I be the one to choose?

Why can't I love who I want to?

Why isn't people understanding what I need?

I just want to be with her. With my world. My home. My angel.

The management asked me to choose between my girlfriend and my career. Of course, I'd choose my girl. I don't need to be in a band to make music. But no, they said they'll ruin my life and the boys's, our image and turn the world against us.I'm torn.

I walk up to my house and close the front door. "Hey baby! How was the recording?" Her voice chirped from the kitchen. She came to me and kissed my lips. Her lips were so soft..."We didn't record today, just had a meeting with the management...." "You....don't seem happy about that....What's wrong Haz?" I couldn't. I just couldn't. I sat on the couch and hid my face behind my hands, tears running down my face impatiently. "Baby what's wrong? You know you can talk to me right? Come here." She knelt on the couch beside me and held my face to her torso, kissing and ruffling my hair. I can't do this. I need to...let her....go. "The management said I...have to choose."I sniffled and pulled away. She sat down beside me."Between what?" "Between....between mine and the boys's career,image,fame and y-" "Don't.Don't...." Her eyes went blank, her face emotionless. "Why is that a hard decision to make Harry? You lose me...not that bad isn't it...." Harry....She doesn't usually call me that...Her eyes suddenly filled with tears. 

"Baby I'm sorry...I-" "When should I leave?" "Do you want to leave Y/N? It's as if your prepared!" "I've known you for years before you knew me baby...Did I know your management would hate you dating me? Yes. Did I know this day would come?Yes. Did I want this day to come?.....No.Never." Her face switched emotions from sadness to terror, she hated to lose me and she has said this to me before. "I don't want to choose you....I don't wanna leave you....If it was only me, I would have not chose-" "Why? I wouldn't let yo choose me over your career or anything else Ha...rry. I...You deserve better." I broke down into tears. How can she? "Come have dinner Harry.....I-I need to go to a meeting at work in an hour anyway...She kept the plate on the table and went upstairs. "Aren't you eating?" "I...I ate...I'm not...Never mind." She closed the door. I couldn't eat. I just kept the food in the fridge and went upstairs and went into the guest room and called Liam.

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L:Hey Harry....are you-

H:She told me herself to choose her...She...She...I'm gonna lose her Liam!

I sobbed

L:What?! No! We told you, it's fine, our fans won't believe all the rumors, and even if they do, we'll have the people who we love and care with us!

H:I can't do that to you guys....I just can't...

L:And? You want to lose her? Wait I'll....We'll be there in 5.

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I heard her come downstairs.

"I'm leaving....I'll only be back by 10...Okay bye.." "Wait!" She stopped. "No good bye kisses?" "I....You'll get used to it....We have to...."Her voice trailed off.

Your P.O.V

You got into the car and bawled your eyes out. You had no meetings, you just drove straight to your best friend's, it's just a 10 minute drive.

"Oh hey Y/n come-" You hugged him tight. You've known him since 8th grade, and you've been supporting each other since the start. "What's wrong baby?" He shut the door and walked towards the sofa. "Wait...Y/N? Why are you crying?" He moved in with his boyfriend last year....Such a perfect couple...."Why can't I love who I want to love? Why do I have to always be an option? Why? WHY?!" You fell to the ground, hands shaking, your friends probably in pure terror and shock right now. "WHAT! Y/N ARE YOU OKAY?" "Let me help you up....Talk." "H-h-he had to choose between me and his life and-and-and I told him to let me go...." "WHAT?!" "He deserves someone better Kev, he does! I...I'm sorry, I'm probably bothering you two as well." "Are you kidding? I was literally telling Kevin that we should drop down to your house..." "Devan's not lying...but come, we need to do something..." "First, go freshen up." I nod. I'm not in the mood to....No. I'm just too weak to deny or argue about anything now.

Harry's P.O.V

**20 minutes after Y/N left**

"I can't believe it...AND YOU BELIEVED WHEN SHE SAID SHE HAD A MEETING?!" "I WAS TOO TIRED TO THINK NIALL! YOU....YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND! IT'S NOT YOU WHO HAS TO GIVE UP ON HIS LOVE." "HARRY!" "Do you think I want to lose the friendship?" "No...I'm sorry I-" "No...we understand...You could have chose us..." "She wouldn't let me...Even if I wouldn't have told her, she wouldn't have let me do that." "That's also true..." My phone started to ring. It was Dennis, from our management. F*ck...I muttered under my breath before taking the phone.

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D:Made the decision yet?

H:....

D: You're breaking up with her right?

H:...Why do you want me to do this so bad?

D: Yes or no Harry?

H:YES! YES I AM. AND I HATE YOU SO MUCH.

D:Oh that's fine...calm down, she's not worth-

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I cut the call. "WHY THE F*CK CAN'T I LOVE HER?! WHY CAN'T I CHOOSE WHO TO BE HAPPY WITH? WHY?!" "It's okay Harry...we'll fix this somehow...we'll let the world know the truth...the fans hate the management too, I swear they know our pain, one day we'll be free from them..." "Uhm...Y/N tweeted..."

'Sometimes you have to let things go...Sometimes it's people.These are some things we don't want to happen but have to let go, sometimes it's things we can't accept but have to learn...sometimes it's people we can't live without, but have to let go...'

Broken.Hurt.F*cked up.

"Harry...." I scrolled down my feed. My sister called me

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G:What the hell Harry? You're cheating on Y/n?!

h:W-what...no...

G:What's with the pictures then?

H:What pictures?

G:Check your freaking phone

H:I was Gemma, now leave.

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I saw it. Photo shopped. Edited.Headlines.

"Harry Styles cheating on Y/N with a model?"

I read out loud. "WHO THE HELL IS SHE?"

"It's...the management of course..."

I threw a plate down and it shattered to nothingness, like my heart tonight.

****30 minutes later****

We spent a lot of time in silence. Like now. The boys are trying so hard to comfort me, and I feel bad for them...They could be blaming themselves for it. Suddenly, the door burst open. 

"Oh...hey...boys..." She looked disheveled. Messy bun, her eyes, once shining, looks dead. "oh...I didn't think you'll be here Harry."

Your P.O.V

Isn't he "supposed" to be with...whoever that model is supposed to be? There's like 8 pictures on the internet of them....doing shit. "You believed it too?" What did he mean by that? They could be manipulated, I know. Did i believe it completely? No."What else should have I done?" I went with it. "YOU KNOW HOW MANIPULATIVE THE MANAGEMENT CAN GET Y/N! OUT OF ALL THE PEOPLE, ALL THE PEOPLE YOU! YOU HAD TO BELIEVE IT TOO?!" His voice rose to a level it never has before. "YOU KNOW WHAT? MAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT. MAYBE I DO DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER..." Everyone in the room froze. "LEAVE. Leave." "I was going to anyway..." I shrugged. I was too empty to feel anything. "Y/N he's just-Harry are you crazy?!" I closed the door. i just had some more things left, I had packed before I left.

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"Good bye boys....love you." I hugged them. "Bye Haz...." I hugged him too. "I love you guys. I always have, i always will," I looked at Harry. "I always do." I walked out and into my car, driving off into the dark.