𝐛𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐥𝐲 // 𝐤. 𝐛𝗼𝐤𝐮𝐭𝗼

𝐬𝐚𝐝 𝐜𝗼𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐢𝗼𝐧𝐬

‼️TW: MENTIONS OF SU*C*DE‼️

"i'm so glad you're okay", he said holding back tears.

i sat there shocked as he wrapped his arms around my shoulders. his warm touch sending chills down my body. i could feel the warmth of his breath against my neck.

i then wrapped my arms around him hugging him back. seeing him like this broke my heart.

he pulled away from the hug and wiped his eyes.

"sorry", he said chuckling.

i looked at him with a slight smile.

"when i found out what had happened to your mom, i couldn't help but worry about you."

"you stopped showing up to work and not too long after, you left town."

"i would try calling and texting you, but it had seemed like you'd broken off all contact with everyone."

"i was afraid you would end up hurting yourself."

he looked to the ground and wiped his pants nervously. i turned in the other direction feeling a little guilty. kuroo was a good friend to me, it must've hurt him for me to just abandon him like that.

"i'm sorry for that", i let out.

he looked up at me a bit surprised.

"i needed to clear my head or else i probably would've ended up hurting myself."

"i'm sorry for being selfish. i should've considered how you'd feel about me just disappearing like that."

"no no don't apologize, i understand your situation", he said calmly.

we sat there in silence for a bit. it was a nice comfortable silence. the kind that i like. it's like that feeling that i get when i'm around-

"so what exactly happened if you don't mind me asking?"

"suicide", i answered blankly

"i really wish i could've helped her."

i didn't pay attention to the tears slowly spilling out of my eyes.

"hey hey, it's okay."

kuroo grabbed my face gently and started wiping my tears.

"you don't understand, i could've helped her, i should've helped her", my voice cracked.

my vision began to blur as more tears spilled from my eyes.

"hey, it's not your fault, there was nothing you could do."

kuroo gently went my eyes clearing my vision a bit. i could then see his face clearly. he wore the softest expression with tears forming in his own eyes.

"it's not your fault", he said in a soothing voice.

"okay?"

i nodded my head slowly sniffling. kuroo then pulled me into his chest and hugged me tightly. his familiar scent filling my nostrils. i tried catching my breath as he rubbed my back for comfort.

i missed him. i missed how he would comfort me on my bad days. i missed how kind he was to me. i missed how he cared for me. i missed him.

"we should probably get back now, we have a long day tomorrow", he said trying to lighten the mood.

"yeah", i said pulling out of his hold.

we stood up and started heading back to the rooms. walking in complete silence.

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as i opened to door i saw the rest of the girls huddled in a circle laughing and having fun. i made my way over to my futon and covered myself up.

"hey y/n, do you wanna play truth or dare with us", shirofuku asked me.

"no thanks, i'm tired."

"okay", she said minding her business.

these girls pretty much knew what boundaries are and when to stop pushing. that's what i liked about them.

i felt my eyes getting heavy as slowly drifted off into a deep sleep.

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haii

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