In a world where love does not exist.

Mistaken (C.6)

I wake up, to my suprise it wasnt the nightmare; or any dream that woke me up, it was the sound of an angry mum screaming downstairs. I realize its my mum... and i dread going down there but as soon as she screams my name i know that i havent got any other choice. I get out of bed, put on my bunny slippers and run downstairs.

'THIS HOUSE HASNT GOT ANY ORDER, THE PEOPLE IN THIS HOUSE DONT MAKE IT BETTER.' She turns around to see me in the middle of the staircase.

'Oh well here is the little victim!' She tells me sarcasticaly, mum looks at me dead in the eye and i can tell exactly what this conversation is going to be about.

'Mum... whats this noise? You woke me up!' I ask her trying to sound innocent but if i thought that would fool my mother, Ive got another thing coming.

'Is that the thing your worrying about, or should it be this-' My mum shows me her hand that is clasping a bracelet of mine, one engraved with my name... it was gifted by my father who died so i wear it everyday; i lost it in the fire! How could i be so careless?

My father was a fair man but he was one with an attitude, a couple of years ago he got into an argument with my mother and ran straight into the road; where a car was- he got hit.

'It seems you lost it at school, exactly where the fire had started! What were you doing there, you told Cecilia and me that you evacuated safely..' She tells me with such rage, i flinch. 

'I did mum, its a coincidence. I may have lost it last week at school- yeah thats it! I remember not finding it...' I say glancing at Hayley who was right beside my mother. She was looking at me with dissapointment, yet i felt that sisterly love throughout her eyes- i knew i could talk to her about what happened and she would understand.

'Dont lie to me.' She holds up her finger to my face. 'Its clear you were behind the fire, you set it off, you accidentally lost your bracelet, you jumped back into the smoke to retrieve your bracelet- but you could not find it because of the smoke blocking your eyes; it makes perfect sense put together!' She tucks away her hands in the pockets of her jeans. 'Explain!'

'You are my mum, you should believe me no matter what the police says! And what shall i explain, you put it together; you clearly know what happened then' I shout at her, giving her a smirk and almost bursting to tears.

I run up to my room, being followed by my mother. 'Come here Alaila!' She shouts at me but i manage to slick into my room and lock the door before she gets a grasp of me.

'Im not playing with you, open up!' She keeps screaming,

'Sister! please, let me listen to what you have to say...' Hayley says after a minute or two.

I burst to tears, silencing the echoes of my cries with a pillow. 'She has nothing to talk about, only to admit that it was her!'

_________________________________ 2 hours later____________________________________

I get up from my bed, eyes sore and swollen up. Im still crying, i sit down at my desk, open up my diary and start writing in hopes of making me feel better.

Dear diary,

Today i learnt that family isnt always blood. It's the people in your life that want you in theirs; the ones who accept you for who you are. The ones who would do anything to see you smile and who love you no matter what. Family is supposed to be our safe heaven. Very often it's the palce where we find the deepest heartache.

Just realizing this hurts worse than being stabbed, hurts worse than hell. My mum blames me for everything; it was too be expected but still i never thought it would be like this, not ever.

I put down my pen on my table, close up my diary and make my way to my bed, i reach for my phone on the nightstand and start texting Cecilia.

Alaila ♥ : Ceci, i got into a fight with my mother. What do i do?

Cecilia ♥ : I dont care, that is your own fault after all!

Alaila ♥ : How could you not care? Where you the one who told my mum about the incident?

Cecilia ♥ : You told me you evacuated safely, so what incident huh? Youve been fooling everyone! Including me, why for what?

Alaila ♥ : Im not in the mood for this! I didnt do anything.

Cecilia ♥ : Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice? Not happening ali.

Alaila ♥ : My own mother doesnt believe me, i thought atleast my friend would!

Cecilia ♥ : Dont just blame me, the whole school knows what you did.

I start tearing up.

Alaila ♥ : Knows what? I didnt do anything.

Cecilia ♥ : Whatever, im not playing this game.

I slam my phone on my silky sheets and start balling my eyes out... what else shall i do?

I go to bed, putting my phone back on the nightstand.