In a world where love does not exist.

Dear Blaise (C.8)

Dear Diary,
Blaise told me he is attracted to me, i blushed a little i bet. It was sort of romantic; theres no lie in that but i didn't expect it. No boy has ever called me cute, nobody has except my sister but then again i wouldn't want someone like her to call me that.
I will admit that the dream i had a couple days ago about blaise was... peculiar. In the dream i was attracted to him. He isn't bad looking thats no lie but i don't think its any more than that; than attraction. Anyways i better gather my stuff and make my way to school, ever since the fire we had 4 days off and today is coming back day. I dread it, Cecilia told me everyone in school is talking about me; not in the nicest way.

I close my diary and open up my wardrobe, what shall i wear today. I feel like going with something casual because I'm not in the greatest of moods but i may as well dress to impress... myself?

'Lets see!' 

I think to myself at what shall i wear and i pick a black long sleeved shirt with a crewneck and i layer that with a cropped white tee with ruffles along the collar. I picked out some white jeans as my bottoms and i put on some black fila shoes with white socks. I put my phone and schoolwork in my backpack and left it on my bed while i grabbed my white puffy jacket. I tucked my bag over my shoulder and i was ready to head out.

_________________________________In school______________________________________

I entered the swamp of a school and i realised that everyone was staring at me, i tried to not pay attention to them but their stares were like holes digging into my chest. I saw Cecilia who was standing next to the bunch of popular girls and i glared them up and down, they smirked and gave me a dirty look, i was appauled; how could my family basically disown me and now my best friend hates me. I dont get it, my life is going down like shattered glass and i cant do anything about it.

I feel an arm that wraps around my own tightly. 'Come with me, babe.' A deep voice whispers in my ear still i know everybody heard it. I turn around and to my suprise... Blaise. He smiles and moves his head to the direction of the girls i understand that he wants to move me away from this trouble and i let him. Afterall he does owe me.

'Ofcourse honey.' I say to him and we walk away to the empty corridors next to the science lab.

'What are you doing here?! you dont... ya know- go to this school now do you?' I ask in an annoyed manner, implying sarcasm.

'Infact, I do- now.'

I sigh, look down and say. 'Thank you for helping me out there, anyway i have to get to class, i guess ill see you around.' I say to him and smile as i walk away.

'All students must be in their science classes in 5 minutes, anybody who is not found in their classes will find themselves in detention, unless they have a special reason not to be.'

The bell rings and everyone makes their way to science and so do i. I sit down at my desk and i see people staring at me, i bite inside of my cheecks like i do when im nervous and im not sure where to look, what to do; whether i should say anything or not. I decided to keep quiet. Blaise walks in and my eyes go dark, my soul exchanges with the devil and i cant see nothing but fear. Why? because i feel likes he is following me everywhere, terrorizing my town and trying to tell me something; exclude me like everybody else did. Maybe he will try blackmailing me. But no he could not, he was at the fire himself that morning... i still wonder what he was doing there.

He looks at me as he enters the classroom and he gives me a little wink, i do nothing but roll my eyes. He takes a seat next to me and i already know that this semester will be a tough one, i just cant wait!