The Girl Saved Herself (All By Herself)

About a boy.

I never understood what my mom meant
when she said her favorite song had been ruined
but when I first talked to you
and asked you your favorite tune
it was the one my mother hated
moments after I found myself listening to exactly that
blaring loudly in the solitude of my room
shortly after my mom came through
"turn it off please,"
she said with a certain sadness in her voice
"I don't want to be reminded of the reminders that I miss."
that didn't stop me from listening to it
on my drives to see you or laying in my bed
at 2 am when I was missing you the most
the longer my feelings got caught
I realized that they were abrupt
I had been consumed by my feelings
only wanting your love
A bond grew between us after some time
something so strong I knew it would break me
if you broke me
but how could I be broken by someone who wasn't even mine?
knowing you're with her now
makes me question all the times
you would hold me after,
you would kiss me goodbye,
you fed me some type of poison
that was covered in lies
but now that you're with her
all I see is the truth
that was hidden for so long because
I never understood what my mom meant
when she said her favorite song had been ruined
until it was the one that I ended up hating