Hannahs POV
it's the day I have been dreading. My moms funeral. I am wearing a knee length dress...its my moms favorite dress for me...and some black wedges. My hair is curled and I only have waterproof mascara on because I know I will be crying. I was just standing Infront of my mirror when I had a knock.
"Come in" I said softly
"Hey, are you ready?" Nate asked
"No, I'm not ready to let her go" I said with a tear coming down my face
"Hey, hey, hey, who said we have to let her go? She is still here with us and you know that. And everyone is still here for us." He said hugging me
"I love you Skate"
"I love yob took Hannah"
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"For those of you who don't know me I'm Hannah. Anne's daughter. Um...my mom was a great person. She was a great mom. She was my bestfriend. I told her everything, and I mean everything. From boys, to personal things, to family things and the whole lot of it. I mean even though her and my dad were always on business trips she was still the best mom I could ever ask for. She was only a call away and she would put aside what ever she is doing to listen to me even if it was "hey mom I miss or come home soon because Skate is annoying me and I can't hit him. Or to just I love you and thank you for being the best mom. You know I was standing Infront of my mirror this morning and someone comes into my room and asks me if I'm ready for this and I said no I'm not ready to let my mom go, because she won't be at my wedding, she can't help me pick out my wedding dress, or spoil her grandchildren like all grandmas do, but this person told me I don't have to let her go and that she will always be here with us no matter where we are. And that made me feel a little better but it's still hard for a 17 year old to loose their bestfriend so young. My mom would always be the one to take care of me when I'm sick, and when I'm fighting with Skate she would always take my side because I'm the younger one, and let's face it...the better looking one and the talented one. But i know that my mom would be proud of all of us. Especially my brother because he is living his dream of making music and doing it with his friends. He has come so far and i know that she will be apart of it every single step of the way. But at the end of the my mom loved me and dad and my brother with all her heart and equally, well maybe me a little bit more, but just glad that she is in a better place now. I love you mom always and forever."
With that I got up and went and just hugged skate.
---after the rest of the funeral---
everyone came back to my house after because my dad was having dinner and going to have a party because it is the fourth of July. ya i know right lets burry my mom on a holiday but this was her favorite holiday. she loved the fireworks and the big cookout we always have and the decorations. sometimes decorating was better than everything else. so i get home and go up into my room and change into a pair of white highwasted shorts and a plain black three quarter crop tp. i wash off my mascara and just reaplly a little bit. Everyone was downstairs having fun. I was walking past my dresser to leave my room when i stopped and looked at the pictures on my wall. i had on wall just dedicated to me and my mom. i had them from when i was born all the way up to the last one i ever took with her whhich was the day before she left for the buisness trip. i was hugging her and then i kissed her cheek. we had the best pictures. we were honestly teenage girls when we were together and i loved it. i miss her so much. Then my phone started ringing. It was gilinksy.
"Hello?"
"come downstairs its time to eat"
"ok save me a spot"
"for sure man"
i took one last look at the wall and smiled a little bit
i walked outside to see everyone sitting and eating. i walked over to the table where the jacks, sammy, and skate were sitting. they all changed too. Sammy was looked fine as usual. he was wearing Khacki shorts and white shirt. God i love him so much.
"oh look who finally showed up." they all said
"Sorry it takes time to look as good as i do" i said sitting between Gilinksy and Skate while Johnson and Sammy were across from us.
"i sat down and Johnson through a peice of fruit at me. i started laughing and i couldnt stop.
"theres that smile that i love to see" gilinsky said
"and those adorable dimples." johnson said i smiled and just kept eating my fruit.
Sammys POV
i was sitting with my friends at the table outside and everyone was eating. i saw Hannah coming out in high wasted shorts and a crop top and all she had on was mascara and she looked absolutely stunning. We were all eating and Johnson threw apeice of his fruit at her and it made her laugh. Oh God how i missed her laugh so much and her smile. she always had the best smile. She would always make my day by just smiling that award winning smile. i cant believe all of the things that i said to her. like what the hell was i thinking. i must have been zoned out because hannah kept trying to get my attention
"SAMMY! SAMMY! SAMMY!"
"huh? what? oh sorry i zoned out, what did you say?"
"um would you help me clean up, everyone went to the beach to set up for the fireworks."
"oh ya of course,"
"Thanks, umm just clean up out here and i will put the food away in the kitchen."
"umm ok"
she turned around and walked inside.
"GOD IM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT, I LOVE HER!" i screamed knowing i would never be able to tell her because i screwed it up bigtime.
