"How exactly do you tell someone that you are completely in love with them?" I thought to myself as we all rode back to my house after I woke up from my little nap. Sammy has been my best friend for as long as I can remember. Gilinsky and Johnson keep saying that I need to tell Sammy how I feel. I have no idea how to do it, let alone when I am going to do it. I feel as if it will destroy our friendship we have, and I do not want lose him. He is everything to me.
"Han, Han, Han, earth to Hannah!" Skate said
"Huh?"
"What were you thinking about Han?" by this time it is just Skate and I in his truck.
"What to do about the Sammy situation...I'm lost. I mean do I tell him? Or do I just go on and act like not telling him is eating me alive. Skate I don't know what to do! He's everything to me, I can't lose him.."
"You will know when it is time Han."
"When?"
"You'll know"
With that we went into the house and I showered while the boys made dinner. Man, did I have a long shower and just thought about everything. I don't know what to do. I got out and put a pair of sweats on and a sweatshirt, braided my hair, put my glasses on and sat at my desk. I went into the locked drawer and pulled out my journal. I write in it quite often, almost everyday. I took it out and wrote
I don't know what to do. Sammy is my best friend. How do I tell my best friend that I have been in love with him since I was thirteen years old? Let alone how do I tell him when it could change our relationship. I love our relationship, I can tell him anything and everything. Besides, girls fall for Sammy everyday. Ever since he has gotten famous there are so many pretty girls that tweet him and see him and I cannot compete with that. I mean just look at me, I am nothing compared to those girls. I look at Sammy and see everything I could possibly want. He has my heart and he doesn't even know it... If I lose him, I lose a part of me that I will never get back. I Am In Love with Sammy Wilkinson.
There was then a knock on my door.
"Hey Han, dinner is ready, we made pizza."
"Thanks Sammy, lets go eat, I am starving."
"I will meet you down stairs, I have to use the bathroom."
"Okay! I will save you a seat."
Sammy's POV
"Sammy, can you go tell Hannah that dinner is ready"
"Yep, be right back"
I went upstairs and knocked on the bedroom door. There she was, the most beautiful girl sitting at her desk. I noticed she was writing in something. I told her that we made pizza for dinner and that everyone was waiting downstairs for her to eat. I told her I would meet her downstairs because I had to use the bathroom. So I went and on my way back I passed Hannah's room and her door was open. I noticed what she was writing in was still open on her desk. I went up and read it.
I don't know what to do. Sammy is my best friend. How do I tell my best friend that I have been in love with him since I was thirteen years old? Let alone how do I tell him when it could change our relationship. I love our relationship, I can tell him anything and everything. Besides, girls fall for Sammy everyday. Ever since he has gotten famous there are so many pretty girls that tweet him and see him and I cannot compete with that. I mean just look at me, I am nothing compared to those girls. I look at Sammy and see everything I could possibly want. He has my heart and he doesn't even know it... If I lose him, I lose a part of me that I will never get back. I am in Love with Sammy Wilkinson.
She's in love with me? Why didn't she ever tell me? How could she not tell me? How could she just keep this from me? Do the Jacks and Skate know about this? If they do, how could they not tell me? There is so much anger inside of me right now. I don't know what to think or what to do. I went down stairs to where every one was sitting at the table..
"Hey Sammy" Hannah said
I just looked at her. I looked at her gorgeous brown eyes and the happiness turned into sadness.
"Sammy? What's wrong?" She said
I didn't say anything. I walked out the door and went straight home.
Hannah's POV
After Sammy slammed the door, I looked at the boys.
"He knows!" I shouted while tears where streaming down my face.
"WHAT" They all shouted.
"I was writing in my journal and I must have left it out...God, I am such an idiot!!" I said.
What did I just do! How could this happen! How could I be so careless and leave my journal out! I knew that he would sneak a glimpse of it. He's Sammy, he is nosy about everything. How could I be so stupid! Was he angry because I have never told him, or was he angry because he doesn't feel the same way?
I think I definitely just lost the person who means the world to me.
