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Glass wall ; renjun centric

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The brunette ran his happy screams filling the air as, the noirette ran on his heels gaining on him. Arms grasping onto his waist Jeno yanked Donghyuck into his chest pausing the little chase they had going on. "Jeno ya?" Donghyuck smiled his eyes happy and content smile softly ghosting over his features, "will you quit crying?" He hummed thumb caressing away the tears that rolling down the older s face. "Wake up already and put that alcoho..."

"Alcohol the Jeno i know doesn't do that bullshit." Renjun snapped the drunk male out of his dazed state, "he's really gone.." the Chinese nodded softly "i understand you're broken Jeno, but I'm here for you i promise."  Hand reaching for the taller he smiled softly and watched them stumble into his arms. "We all miss him." Renjun muttered under his breath and tucked the other into bed, their shared dorm being a huge mess. Clothing and empty bottles lay about. All Renjun could do was inhale and start cleaning up, glass after glass.

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Renjun's frame loomed over a shaking and sobbing nauseous Jisung, "sungie how long have the night mares lasted?" He whispered softly once the younger stood wobbling and gurgled mouth wash with a wince. "He's gone." Again there was that reminder, a pang was set off in Renjun all the older could do was nod with a small assuring smile "sungie that's not true he's up there somewhere waiting to haunt us." Renjun gave the blue haired boy's hair a good ruffle and sent him back into bed.

The Chinese hadn't slept since the funeral which was quite some days ago, he wasn't counting nor was he counting the many times he successfully fell asleep only to wake up grasping his hurting chest minutes later. He was really exhausted and couldn't eat he wouldn't, as much as he tried to his suffering he couldn't keep down even a bite of soup. He could tell some of the members worried only the older ones though, they had asked in multiple occasions if he wanted them to help out with the younger ones.

Stubborn Renjun had to say no he just had to, because he wanted to show them he was okay. That they needed to move on and that they would make a come back stronger then ever, for their dearest Donghyuck. Renjun took all the responsibilities of the saddened youngins into his own hands bustling from room to room every night to make sure they could sleep peacefully, to make sure they ate enough to make it through practice,  to keep them on their feet.

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It had been a few weeks to long since Donghyuck's death but Renjun had managed, one more day one more day he pushed and plowed through a few more days until he wasn't able to, he couldn't push through practices no more resulting in them having to repeat the dance all over, hearing they're  "it's okay"s made him feel guilt on another level. He was failing and he knew it.

Currently it was 6 am and everyone was waking up getting ready for a quick morning's practice, as much to his shitty luck Renjun couldn't push himself up, his body protested with every limb, his brain went static like a tv. "No i have to get up cmon Jun." he pushed himself more and more finally proceeding to get up and ready himself. The members all sat in the living room plopped in front of the tv, "practice's cancelled." Jaehyun leaned in the entrance of the hallway staring at Renjun's sunken frame.

Jungwoo who stood in the kitchen chatting with kun stopped what he was doing to tell the Chinese chief that he must continue on with out him, Ten too placed down his book he had been reading with Johnny and yanked the Chicago boy over to the gathering group in the hall. "Shouldn't we move this into the room." Johnny suggested watching them all nodded and shuffle to the room. Taeyong had already been sitting on the vacant bed across from Renjun's, Jaemin's bed which reminded him that the older was checking up on his disk problem.

"Jun." Taeyong said softly making room for the Chinese to seat next to him, when Renjun bent his legs to sit his whole body gave way making him fall like woody from toy story whenever Andy came. The look in all their eyes explained what they would be talking about, "no NO." He laughed in disbelief and tried to get back up cussing at his failing body "we aren't doing this!", Jungwoo sat across from the struggling Chinese. As Johnny took the other side of Renjun gently placing a hand in his thigh in comfort.

"Jun you've been so focused on the other's that none of us asked how you felt..." Johnny started with a gentle approach. His eyes gave the other an encouraging sparkle "how do you feel?" He asked watching the Chinese's frame crumble to the point the Chinese's face was buried into the Chicago boy's shoulder. A moment of given silence and he was sobbing uncontrollably ranting out everything.

"I'm so tired, i can't move anymore, I'm starved and i can't eat! All i think about is him and the members but because I've been so focused on everyone else i didn't even have time to think of myself or mourn him i feel so guilty... poor Jeno .... him and ..... chenle....  jisung ... " Ten chuckled and kneeled infront of Renjun taking both the upset latter's hands giving them a calming squeeze. "Babes breathe all I hear are names at this point." He smiled a little and stood grabbing Renjun's cheeks, "you need a spa day but first rest up. I'm going to go book it. you can't tell me no. end of story." He stood leaving the room after smooching the upset boy's forehead.

Jungwoo dismissed Johnny and took said boy's now vacant spot. Tapping Renjun's shoulder the second he took sight of the stressed eye bags, dull eyes, puffer red rimmed shinning with new found tears. He pulled Renjun into a hug that spoke more than just words. Renjun relaxed fully and stopped the fit of tears with upset hiccups. "Thanks woo." The Chinese smiled and rubbed at his nose. Taeyong handed him a tissues the two of their eyes following the leaving puppy's back who disappeared out of the doors.

Jaehyun pushed all of Renjun's hair back and inhaled deeply "he wouldn't want you to mourn so please don't be upset Jun, after that spa day tell you what we go eat your favorite and from now all you earn all rights to cuddle with me and taeyong at any given time." He spoke with a smile before leaving the room.

Now it was just Renjun and Taeyong, smiling at the small shirts from Renjun blowing his nose so hard into the tissue the leader shook his head "please come to us for help, handling all the youngsters in your own is to much for one person. They way you juggled reminded me of when Hansol left and i did the same, you could say we're alike and have a similar way of coping huh?" He chuckled and looked at Renjun finally. "We're all sad and we're all going to help each other so try to push us away and we'll come running back to break down all the walls like the amor Titan in aot." Renjun snorted this time not into his tissue almost getting snot everywhere, "what? Yong leave aot out of this!" He gagged silently at his icky feeling nose and wiped the rest of his snot away.

"You're horrible." Renjun glared a small smile sneaking its way into his lips as he let lose a little. Taeyong's mouth dropped "okay you couldn't cheer up at the other reference that was said but laughed at my aot reference, don't like and tell me you don't have a soft spot for Titans let alone anime Jun." he teased watching the Chinese grin "whatever." Taeyong stood and motioned for the other to come join him and the other's. "Is there where you make fun of me about Be Natural?" He teased more glad to have distracted the younger from his sadness.

Renjun only took his leader's hand and the two walked out of the room to join the other occupied members, he just needed a little attention and to be cheered up.