Insanely Insane|| Lams

Chapter 21

Alexander's POV
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i sigh and get out of the shower..

he's got to go back.. he can't stay here.

i dry off and get dress. I make my way to my room and look at john...i'm scared that he's going to get angry when i try to take him back..

"john.." i say as i shake him lightly

"hm." he mumbles

"you got to get up.." i say and he sighs.

"no. fuck no i'm not going back there." he says and i move my hand away from him.

"you got to john. you know how much trouble i'll get in to if the police find out about this?! i can go to prison, john." i say obviously getting angry and he sits up and looks at me.

"you won't get into trouble if no one finds out." he says as he rolls his eyes.

"no. get the fuck dress. i will NOT go to jail for you." i hiss and get up. i go to walk away until he grabbed my wrist.

"i said i am not going back. For a doctor you're pretty stupid." he grips my wrist tighter. "don't take me back. no one has to know alexander.." he says and i wince

"l-let go of me. it hurts." i say as i try to pull my arm away from him

"tell me. you won't take me back." he says and i nod and he lets go..

"come here." he says and obliged.

"i'm sorry..i just don't want to go back there...you understand right?" he says and i just nod and he brushes his thumb across my cheek

"good..." he says and goes to kiss me but i turn my head away

"u-um...i'll go make breakfast..." i say and get up..

"alexander.." he says and i shake my head and go to the kitchen as i tear up..

i got to take him..i don't know how...

"hammy.." he says and i jump a little as i quickly wipe my tears away

"y-yeah.." i say and he wraps his arms around my waist

"i'm sorry..i really am sorry...i didn't mean to hurt you....i was scared i don't want to back there" he says and sniffles.

i turn around and look at him to see he's been crying..

"it's okay..i'm fine..." i say and wipe his tears away..

"what do you want for breakfast.." i ask

"...pancakes?" he says and i smile a little..

"okay...after breakfast can i take you shopping or something?" i say and he shakes his head

"i can't risk being caught.." he says and i sigh. damn.

i was going to take him to the hospital instead of shopping but that idea didn't work. fuck.

"o-okay...well how about you stay here and i go and get you a few things?" i say he smiles

"sounds good to me. i'll wait for you here" he says and sits at the table as i get started on breakfast

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"okay, i'm going i'll be back soon." i say as i kiss his cheek

"be careful.." he says and i ruffle his hair and go to walk away but he grabs my wrist and i flinch

"s-sorry.." he lets go "i just wanted a kiss..." he says and i kiss his cheek again

"a real kiss.." he says and i look at him..i can't....i'll change my mind about calling the police while i'm gone..

"i-i have to hurry and go john..." i say

"kiss me." he says and i bite my lip

"it's just a kiss" he says and i look away...

just a kiss? is that what it means to him or something? when i kiss john it feels....it feels like i'm floating..his lips are so soft and plump it makes me want to kiss him forever and i never want to come up for air..

"please? kiss me..." he asks and he turns my head towards him..

i kiss him. i kiss him lovingly knowing that this will be the last time..

i pull away

"i'll be back.." i say as i walk out the front door and to my car. I get in and drive away..

i pick up my phone and dial the number to the police station and put it up to my ear..

ring..

ring..

ring...

finally someone answers the phone..

"yes this is ******** police department." a man with a rough voice says..

"u-um..hello..." i say

"what is that you need? are you calling us to report a crime that has been committed?" he asks and i can feel my palms getting sweaty

"u-uh..t-the escaped u-um...the escaped patient f-from the uh insane asylum is a-at m-my home right now.." i say

"what's the address." he says in a rush voice and i go to hang up..

but i stop myself. i can't let him live at my home. i don't want to go to prison..

i give the man my address.

"and who is this making the call?" he asks and i freeze. why are you asking me that?!

i hang up and drive back home. oh god. what did i just do?!

i get out of my car and go inside

"home already?" john asks and i look at him. fear in my eyes

"hide." i say and he looks confused.
"HIDE! g-go hide!" i say and he just shakes his head

"what are you talking about?" he asks and i can already hear the police sirens

"go hide john" i say and he looks at the door and back at me..

"you...you didn't..." he says and i tear up...

"i-it was a mistake." i say and he backs away from me...he looks like he's going to hurt me again...

"y-you... how could you!" he says and he runs towards me and i run away

"j-john just..just listen to me okay?! i-i'm trying to help you!" i cry and he looks so pissed..

"you son of a bitch!" he hisses at me as he tries to get around the table but i keep going to the other side

"will you just go hide! i-i'll tell them they have the wrong house!" i scream and he scoffs and climbs across the table and tackles me to the floor

"g-get off of me! GET OFF" i say as he goes to put his hands around my throat until we both hear

"freeze!"

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goodnight..