Things I'll never say

T W O

A R I A N A ' S POV

still February 4, 2015

My best friend Riona and my new friend whom I just met in practice, Charlene are gonna sing/dance for the palaro today and we've practiced with Ms. Arnie for straight 4 hours yesterday just for this.

Rio and Char are my backup dancers/second voice

We will sing after our vice principal ends her speech and we're not even listening nor practicing even if our hearts is beating like a SLEDGEHAMMER out of nervousness and I don't even know if that's a word.

I'm feeling like I have stage-o-phobia if that makes sense

We're gonna sing 'All about that bass' by Meghan Trainor

We're told to wear something with pastel colors and I am wearing a lavender shirt and a pink and black choker and a jean shorts and a pink rubber shoes and a white long socks.

" now to bust off our nervousness in out body, let's see our intermission number with Ariana Gomez, Riona Tan, and Charlene De Jesus singing all about that bass by Meghan Trainor " the MC spoke through her mic.

We ran all the way to the stage and started singing it.

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The song ended about 4 minutes and..... I don't know, don't blame me cause I bet you don't know the exact time too.

We went down to the NBC to play soccerbase, I understood it now, it's like baseball but soccer way.

Our team is Grade 3 Fearless Faithfulness so to let you guys know, American third graders and Filipino third graders are a total opposite

Americans will be still watching kiddie shows and playing with Barbie dolls but that's not how Filipinos make it work, they'll have crushes, have blogs and get like thousand followers in a month, say "I know right" and "wtf".

So I'm pretty much like the Filipino ones, I got all of those.

I sat on the shaded bleachers.

Riona is on my left and Meg, my other best friend is on my right. Nika, my best friend since 2nd grade on the first day of school.

Riona started squealing when it's Bryan's turn.

Ya see, she has a crush on Bryan and i do too, we told each other about this when its only the two of us playing truth or dare after school when Nika , Bea and Clarissa left.

Im not mad at her of course because its not her fault that she likes him.

But its getting annoying because now that she knows its alright to talk about him in front of me, its all she ever talks about whenever she calls me up when she gets bored.

" can i borrow your ipad so i could film him play?? PLEAASSEE!! " Riona started screaming in my ears for the millionth time! See, thats why i told you its getting annoying.

I just gave her my ipad because i dont want my ears to bleed and even if she has like taken oh i dont know......31 PICS OF HIM AND HER ON MY IPAD AND 23 OF HIM!?!?

After shes done taking 4 videos and 7 pics i ' dare or dare ' her.

" dare " she said

" i dare you to tell Bryan that you like him after the game when its only break. "

She turned so red and started squealing, and i think my ears just started bleeding.

30 minutes had gone by and its their break and her time to tell him.

She liked Bryan since the 3rd quarter but i did since the first day of school.

I push them together and even made a ship name #briona because i dont want to show the obvious that im sad because she likes him and i dont want to turn her down, i dont want us to be enemies and fight over a boy because that would be stupid.

" Go na Rio! Tell it to him!! Its a dare!! Are you gonna tell him or im gonna tell him? " i encourage her to do it even if i dont want her to because im afraid he'll tell her he likes her too.

But i want Rio to be happy, i want all of my friends to be happy.

But the problem is that their happy, but im not.

I give them compliments and gifts and even a ride home, and they dont give it back to me.

I watch her as she walks towards the place where he is alone sitting on a chair.

I move closer towards them to get a better look and to film it with my iPad.

He puts his water jug down and closes it. Rio moves closer to him.

I was preparing my camera to film when I heard him stop her after she goes away and say..

" I like you too "

Those 4 words stabbed me hard, like I'm being killed, hard, harder than getting a real bruise because it didn't mark on my skin, it marked on my heart.

The pain strikes and I don't know what to feel.

Anger, Sadness, Curiousity, Happy, Hatred, Jealous? I don't know!

Things rush to my brain, out of all those 6 feelings, Anger & Jealousy stood out.

A senior called my name out because I need to join Marc, Jarred, Edra, Sophie, Meg, Gabby, Therese, Charlize, Alleinder, & Rafael for the Tug of war.

I'm the 4th person in the rope.

1st whistle, kneel down and finding balance.

2nd whistle, Pull.

The thought of him liking her back brings jealousy through me and I need to get it out.

I pull hard, as hard as I can, harder than I did last year.

Our team won against the 4 other sections.

Rio walks towards me telling how Bryan said he liked her back and not even congratulating me.

Which hurts me more

I couldnt take it anymore! My anger increases to 100.1 degrees.

" WOULD YOU JUST SHUT UP FOR A SECOND TALKING ABOUT HIM?! " I finally screamed at her. Luckily no one seemed to hear.

She stood there... Frozen.