Things I'll never say

T H R E E

A R I A N A ' S POV

February 5, 2015

We're still playing soccerbase to get the final results of who's the winner.

I didn't want to go to school because I'm afraid I wouldn't contain myself and shout at a random people I see in the campus.

So I tried saying that my head hurts and my back is sore because I have to stacks of pillow for my head to lay on.

But my parents didn't buy it, mostly because even if I'm already vomiting and my temperature is on 40 they still say that school and education are important and that laying down and thinking I'm sick will make me more sick.

Standing up, I wonder what's going to happen at school.

I went straight ahead to my bathroom and took a VERY cold shower to wake me up to be professional enough not to freak out.

I wore the PALARO team shirt of my class which is blue and says Fearless *insert a pic of an eagle face* Faithfulness and our schools jogging pants with my black and mint green rubber shoes.

I got to the kitchen knowing that the breakfast is ham and toasted bread.

I went to the pantry and got the Swiss miss dark chocolate to kick my butt of and aim to win for the palaro.

After doing everything, I grabbed my backpack that contains my snacks, water jug, hair ties, towel, earphone, iPad and phone.

I headed outside together with my dad and grandfather.

My dad rides with another car while my grandfather drops me off to school and pick me up later on.

A ride to school is 15 minutes so I grabbed my phone and started texting one of my other best friends Shannon from Miami, Florida.

I put on my earphones and listened to Jai Waetford's song 'Shy' which probably suits me in my situation right now.

I made a playlist of songs which has Shy by Jai Waetford, Your Eyes by Jai Waetford, Trouble by NeverShoutNever, Happy by NeverShoutNever, and Boyfriend Material by Ariana Grande.

When I saw the sight the school building, I stopped the music and put my phone and earphones inside my bag which I never show to anyone even my bestfriends.

I told my grandfather to pick my up at 2:30 even if it ends at 12:10 because I want to be alone in a big space like don't care.

I entered my usual classroom and same as yesterday, the chairs are set aside.

I sat on my chair that I claimed as my own because I've been sitting on it since yesterday.

On my right sits the perfectionist, Sophie.

We used to be bestfriends and even build a group and called it ' The Fierce and Fab 4 ' with Riona and Nika.

But then she started being bossy and a Drama Queen so the three of us started hating her but never told her that we hate her.

Riona and Nika was there already so we decided to go outside first since class isn't starting any minute.

I apologized to Rio after shouting at her yesterday before going out, I mean it's not her fault that they liked each other.

On the other section, to be exact its Owlsome Prudence.

I have another best friend (i have too much Bestfriends^^ ily) which is Clarissa and she has a crush on Enrico Miguel so I dared both of them to pinch each other's cheek while we video it.

Everybody started saying " Ayiiiieeeeee " and other stuff.

I started shouting "When I say Clarissa you say Miguel!!!"

Then they shout "Miguel!!"

We went back to the classroom and I sat down to my chair repeatedly watching the video of them together.

Hahahaha I love setting up two people together, too bad one of the two people I set up is my Bestfriend and my Crush together.

Now I'm crushed and I'm all alone.

Probably after years or even months, maybe even days! They'd be MU's and I'd be the third wheel.

I took out my iPad and earphone and started listening to 'things I'll never say' by Avril Lavigne.

I didn't know I was jamming so hard with the song that everyone heard it.

I mouthed sorry and changed my song to 'Crush' by David Archuleta

I'm broken and embarrassed.

What a wonderful day. Hint the sarcasm.

Meg went to my place and forced me to take off my earphones and listen to her.

She talked about some stuff I didn't really pay attention to until she asked me what's that two red lines that's on my right arm.

I hesitated and started to stutter.

" Promise me you won't tell anybody and zip your mouth " I said hopefully that she'll understand what's the two RED lines on my arm.

" I promise. " she swore.

" I do cuts. Every night, for some reasons I can't tell anyone. I just forgot to cover this one today. " I said while closing my eyes.

" I promise I won't tell anyone but what's the reasons?? " she asked

" I told you , I can't tell you, but I will soon " I tell her seriously.

" it's okay, whatever it is, you'll get through it " after that she went back to her seat.

Ms. Arnie came to the class together with Ms. Mabel.

Their our Advisers/Coach for everyday.

Time to go back to the NBC to play soccerbase.

Instead of watching the game, I just played would you rather with Nika and Meg.

Because if I watch, I'll just see his face and upsetting scenes will just pop into my mind and will make me go nuts again so I'd rather be scolded for not watching than watch the game and remember yesterday.