Fire & Desire

8 | Distractions

It has been almost two weeks since I seen Aza and I still couldn't get her off my mind. Her touch, her voice , the way she wore her locs in that cute ass bun, reviling her pretty almond eyes. And that cologne... I just couldn't get her off my mind.

The flashbacks seemed to be more intense than that actual night . I regretted it because I knew we couldn't end up in that position again.. even though I so badly wanted to. I felt bad for her, she was the one in a whole relationship about to get married. I couldn't be the woman who breaks another woman's heart. Don't get me wrong , I've played side-bitch to plenty of women but that wasn't my cup of tea anymore. The last time I got involved in something like that , I got trapped in a closet with a muzzler on my mouth and my arms tied , bondage style.

"Yo Kapri you good?" Casey's bright face popped into my office. We rented offices in the same building so we seen each other  on our hourly coffee runs. I looked up at her smiling at how good she looked. Her hair freshly cut with waves the ocean couldn't compete with. Her brows nicely waxed , making her facial features look more chizzled. My heartached as I remembered why she had looked so done up , Her mothers funeral.

Casey's mother passed a week ago and her funeral was tomorrow.It was like Casey went into a black hole the day we found out. We was out to eat when she got the call. It broke Casey because she had been trying to be there for her mother's last moments but was out to eat with friends instead. She's been overcompensating since. The funeral is looking more like a gala. She's spent so much money laying her mom to rest , I almost forgot it was a funeral. I figured I just let her cope how she wants. As long as she's okay.

"Come in." I said softly as I smiled slyly. She smiled showing off her pearly whites before fully entering my office. She walk over to a chair that sat in front of my desk. From afar she looked fine but as she got closer , I could see through that. My friend was hurting.

"It's okay." I said softly as I got out of my chair to be by her side. She immediately started sobbing before I could even get to her. I caught her before she could even sit down so that her body was now on top of mine as we sat .

I held her tightly  as she sobbed into my neck . Her tears dampened the collar of my shirt as she cried harder than ever. I could feel her pain radiating off of her. She was broken into so many pieces and I had no idea how to fix her. So I just held her.

She finally stopped crying as she leaned up so we was now face to face , " I don't know what I would do without you." She said softly as tears still ran down her face .

"I will always be here for you no matter what Casey , remember Casey and Kapri versus everybody." I said reminiscing on a silly line we use to say as kids.

"Casey and Kapri versus everybody." Casey slowly leaned in as if she was about to kiss me . I leaned my neck further away from her in an attempt to dodge the kiss .

"Your just mourning and want to feel something so you've been having hella sex with random women, I get it but I'm not a random woman, I'm your best friend Casey and we've never been like that. I love you and don't want to hurt you ok. Let's not got there." I spoke quickly before her lips could land on mine.

She quickly pulled away , realizing what was about to happen. " Plus you don't even like dykes .. I mean WE don't like dykes." I chuckled nervously . A image of Aza flashed in my head . Her on top of me , I wanted her so bad . I was feenin . I quickly shook the thoughts and focused my attention back on my friend.

"It never happened .. HEY! Let's go out tonight . Okay? Just me and you. Let's go to The Strip!" I said referring to one of our favorite bars.

She smiled , " Nah I don't want to be drunk at my ma's funeral . I gotta be up early tomorrow to make sure my arrangements go right ... I've already missed enough." She frowned .