Jimmy Hopkins x reader

Part 15: Confession

(Y/n) POV

Walking out of the library, I quickly made my way to my dorm. I had no idea what I was going to do when I got there, all I could worry about was not crying on my way there. How could I not have thought this? Like someone else liking Jimmy is impossible. What if he only sees me as like a sister and I really have no chance?

My eyes got hotter as warm salty tears threaten to fall. I tried to wipe them quickly as if there was just something in my eyes, but the more I wiped the more tears fell. My nose started to get stuffy and it was a little harder to breathe. I began jogging to my dorm, though I could barely see through the water in my eyes. I just wanted to sit there and cry, my heart hurt, as if someone betrayed me. Back stabbed me. As if I trusted someone to keep me safe and the sold me out.

I made it to my dorm and just plopped on my bed, face down. Finally I was able to let my feelings out freely. I screamed into my pillow so I wouldn't draw attention to myself. I glanced over to the door of my room to make sure it was at least closed or cracked so nobody could hear me. The last thing I want to do is talk to someone right now, or have them hear me.

I've calmed down now because of a nice needed nap. My breathing is still rugged and shaky, but its better than before. Every here and there I would start sobbing again, but only for a couple of minutes. As I look through my window it's already almost dark, almost evening.

I look at my phone to see 8 missed calls and 19 text messages from Jimmy. I sat up and picked up my phone scrolling through the messages:
Where r u
(Y/n) quit playin arounf
*around
(Some time later)
Seriously (Y/n) call me back
Where are you??
While reading I was interrupted by loud voices from the hallway. I got up annoyed to close the door but then I caught them say:
"You know Jimmy?"
"Jimmy Hopkins, right?"
"Yea, and that girl he's been hanging out with all this time?"
"Yea?"
"Apparently she's lesbian"
". . . Really?"
"YEESS, you know what that means.."
"HE'S SINGLE" they celebrated in unison, walking right past my room.

All of the feeling came rushing back to me. The pain. The aching pain in my heart. It hurt so bad. I ran back to my bed, water already running down my face in the dried up spots it once was.

After a while I heard rocks banging on my window. Already knowing who it was, I still had trouble not responding or reacting. I was mainly scared he'd come up here himself somehow, there's never anything thats going to stop that idiot from getting what he wants.

I laid there on my bed in attempt of going back to sleep. Until I heard my door open and shut. I don't have a roommate and I'm too sad to look at who it is so I might get murdered, what a day. I felt someone grab my shoulders and shake me violently, yet it felt like they were trying to be gentle.

"Y/n where were you!" Jimmy quietly shouted at me, still trying to shake me awake.

"MMMmmmm" I tried to speak but sadness lingered in my voice. If I actually made an effort to talk, I'd start crying all over again.

"What?, (Y/n) get up com'on" Now sitting on my bed, he tried to turn over my limp body and I refused to help him. Slipping out of his fingers I fell back on the bed.

"MMMmmMMmmm" weakly protesting his efforts to get me up didn't work, as he was successfully able to turn me over. I quickly hid my face from him, as I knew I had red eyes and dry tears on my face.

"(Y/n) what's going on?" Jimmy was genuinely confused, as he should be. I didn't want to tell him, or know what to tell him. 'I'm sad because other girls like you when I like you but I don't know if you like me and I don't want to break this friendship. And because you don't have many friends I'm not sure how friendly you were being or if you like me too.' I could never say that, my confidence isn't nearly at that level.

Jimmy began peeling my hands away from my face. Of course I tried to fight back but he's stronger than me. Inevitably he won, but I turned away from him and restored my hands in the stated they were in before. Tired of my actions he stood up and looked at me.

"(Y/n)," Jimmy called out my name sternly, "what is going on"

He demanded an answer and with that tone it was hard ignore how serious he was. Deep down I wanted to use this as evidence that he loved me, but if it were another friend who wouldn't do the same? Your friend suddenly disappears and they're crying in their bed and wont explain why. Anyone would do this, I'm not special.

Reluctantly I remove my hands from my face. But I continuously refused turn over. Seeing my red eyes he began to hesitantly put his hand on my back and slowly rub for comfort, slowly crouching down beside my head. It took him a while to say anything but when he did I didn't expect such a strong, angry tone.

"What.Happened." I could tell he wasn't trying to sound so harsh but I don't think he could help it. In the slightest bit I was...scared? I knew he wasn't going to hurt me though but...the way he sounded.

"(Y/n)" he snapped me out of my thoughts again. Once more I was unable to ignore his serious tone.

"I don't want you to worry about it"

"Well I'm fucking worried" he stated almost cutting me off. He's not leaving unless he has an answer, and I certainly don't know what to tell him. I sniffed a little trying to breathe through my nose, and Jimmy took a deep sign.

"Let me help you" he said as if defeated from the battle of trying to figure out what's wrong with me. Which makes me wonder why doesn't he just give up and leave. But not this knuckle head, he needs an answer.

"I'm in love"

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And that's where we're ending it worst time to end I know lolololol
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