𝗪𝗵𝗼 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲𝘀, 𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲. <𝗮 𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻 𝗯𝗹𝗮𝗶𝗿 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗳𝗶𝗰>

𝙸𝚝 𝚑𝚞𝚛𝚝𝚜

Once me and Nathan finished our morning routines we went downstairs together. We immediately spot Lyon and everyone so we walk over there.
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"Nice shirt Faith" Lyon smirked at me and looked at nathan. Yaya and Akira looked between me and nathan with their jaws basically on the floor. Vivi didn't notice anything cause she was playing a game on YaYa's phone.  I turn red and nathan laughs awkwardly.
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"Let's go eat breakfast" i change the subject, smoothly obviously because everyone agrees.
The girls and i were waiting for the boys to come back from getting their breakfast, in silence. all you could hear was guppy chewing her dry cereal.

"So, you and nathan?" Akira finally breaks the silence, picking up a piece of bacon and eating it after she finishes her sentence.

"What about us?" I ask, genuinely confused.

"Well, you fell asleep on him last night, asked him to stay with you while you got ready, your wearing his shirt and you guys are like parents with Vivien. Not to mention he protected you with the old dude." YaYa said, and akira nods in agreement.

"The falling asleep on him was an accident, i didn't want to but i did cause i can't control where i fall asleep you both know this. He stayed with me cause you guys already left, i'm wearing his shirt cause all i had were tank tops and i was uncomfortable wearing them after the old man, Vivien is like my child and we all act like she's our child, and he protected me as a nice gesture. He's still the person i've hated since diapers and my opinion isn't changing."
Their eyes widen as they look behind me.

"He's behind me, isn't he." They nod.
"He heard everything, didn't he." they nod. I take a sigh of regret and turn around slowly to see a nathan with his mouth wide open, tears threatening to spill out of his eyes. He shoved his plate into Lyons chest and booked it. I immediately stood up and ran after him, bumping into a few people.
"NATHAN!! WAIT!!"

it felt like hours. i've been chasing nathan for what, 6 hours? i check my watch. 10 minutes. Nathan starts slowing down, we're in some alleyway of some sort.

"Nathan i-"
"No! you don't get to talk. after everything i've done for you, to make up for some accident in 2nd grade this is what i get? you STILL don't forgive me?! I SAVED YOUR LIFE FAITH!! I RISKED IT ALL FOR YOU AND THIS IS WHAT I GET?! THIS!!??" His voice was full of anger. everything he was saying was out of anger. I was trembling. i've never seen him like this. he wasn't even like this the night of the old dude.

"FAITH I THOUGHT WE COULD BE FRIENDS, BUT OBVIOUSLY NOT. YOU HOLD SO MANY GRUDGES ITS TIRING TRYING TO HELP YOU. I HELPED YOU WITH A PANIC ATTACK, I HELPED YOU NOT GET KIDNAPPED AGAI-" He realized what he was saying and immediately stopped.
"Finish your sentence" i said, shakily. He shakes his head.
"Faith i-"
"NO! NOW YOU DONT GET TO TALK!! WHY ARE YOU JUST NOW TRYING TO FIX THINGS? WERE 14. YOUVE HAD YEARS AND YOUR DOING IT NOW?! THANKS FOR SAVING ME WITH THE OLD MAN AND THE PANIC ATTACK AND ALL THAT BUT WHY NOW NATHAN, WHY? YOU HAD A GOOD 6-7 YEARS TO FIX IT AND YOU CHOOSE NOW?! YOUR SO STUBBORN!!" I yell at the top of my lungs. Breaking down. Crying. in the middle of an alleyway. Nobody was around, so nobody heard anything.
"Faith, sometimes i wish we had NEVER met again." That's what finished me. I know what i said was bad and i regret saying it, but that? that leaves a scar.
"alright." Is all i say as i turn around to walk back to the hotel. Tears running down my face. I turn around, and look at him with the dirtiest look ever. Full of hatred, full of rage, full of sadness.
"I almost forgot," I slip his shirt off, revealing a red tank top under it.
"Here." I throw the shirt at him, and walk away. As soon as i'm 5 buildings away, i start crying my eyes out. I hear faint footsteps running towards me and my name being called. i didn't look up though. is it just me or did it get really hot out here?? Woah, what's happening, why can't i see, why can't i hear? i'm so dizzy...
*thud*

<1 day later>

Pain. that was all i could feel. After what happened with nathan, i never saw him or Lyon again. We went home yesterday, waiting for a callback about the movie.
I was laying in my bed, crying softly. why was i crying, i said i hated him first. It was that one sentence though. the one that completely broke me. The one that made me feel less alive. Everyday it rings through my head, reminding me on how bad i treated him. How i was so blind to realize he wanted to be friends again.
"i wish we never met"
"i wish we never met"
"i wish we never met"
I couldn't hear anything but that sentence. Ever since we got home i have barely eaten,slept, or got up. i was out of it. I'm usually so cheerful and look at the bright side of things but, in this situation,
"Is there a bright side?"

"there's always a bright side."

i shoot my head to look at the door. Lyon's standing there, his arms crossed and his right foot behind his left, while it's on its toe.
"Your supposed to be in Arizona" I said, studying his outfit.
"You are supposed to be out of bed and not crying." Dang it. He got me there.
"I can't force the pain to leave that easily."
He walks into my room and shuts the door, turning the lights on. I cover my eyes and whimper at the burning sensation.
"Sit up against the bed frame or wall. We're talking about this." Lyon sat at the end of my bed after taking his shoes off. I hesitate but sit against the bed frame anyways.
"What happened in the alleyway?" Lyon asked, holding onto one of my stuffed animals. I explain to him every detail of what happened, he nodded his head listening to every word. I could get used to this.
"That sounds similar to what nathan told me, except nathan said that out of heartbreak, anger, and rage. He regrets it, a lot. I can tell you that now. He pushes himself down, knowing he hurt you."
"He still did it." I reply coldly, looking Lyon dead in the eyes.
"What even happened in 2nd grade to cause you two to fall out?"