Disappointed.
That's the right word to describe you.
You trusted him.
So much.
And everything both of you ever said, promised, shared, built and had is fade away just like your trust in him.
Yesterday, he said that he had to go in the studio. You stayed at home alone waiting for him to come back home.
You stayed up until 1 am and then you fell asleep on the couch.
He come back home this morning and he told that he was in the studio the whole day and night, that he was tired and he needed to sleep.
The evening, you decided to go on Twitter and a when you understood that a drama was happening, you tried to know what was happening and saw them.
Numerous pictures of Justin in a club, a brunette girl was riding his legs, he looked really relaxed and excited. But what really broke your heart was a picture of him and the same girl kissing.
You won't imagine and don't wanna know what happened after.
You're disappointed, angry, broken hearted, but mostly angry.
You were there waiting for him, worried for him, worried for the fact that he could be stressed, you were in that house all alone while he was at that club having fun and doing God knows what with that girl.
He came in to the kitchen, visibly just wake up, his hair is a mess and his cheeks are red for the hot and the sheets.
"Sorry babe, I was really tired." He says trying to kiss your cheek, but you avoid him.
"I guess lie to your girlfriend is really wearisome, isn't it?" You say crossing your arms to your chest.
"What are you talking about?" He says acting like he doesn't know anything.
"Don't act like this, Justin. I find out everything. Why didn't you tell me? Is because you don't like me anymore? You don't like me in that way? I don't satisfy you?"
You're showing him your weak side. You're wrong, you know that.
"I-I'm really sorry, Ryan and Chaz wanted to have some fun so-" He try to explain, coming towards you, but you take a few of steps back.
"That's not a good reason for cheating on me." You say.
"I-I know, but I was really drunk and s-she just-" He tries to take your hands in his but you keep take the distance from him.
"Please, don't treat me like this. Let me touch you." He says, even his eyes seems like begging you.
"Yesterday I was here, ALONE, waiting for you to back home. You didn't. I was so worried, but you were there having fun with that bitch. You know what? You can stay for the night where you've been yesterday."
"Y/N, I know, I'm wrong. I love you, please don't. I'm a mess, I don't deserve you, but I'll make you forgive me. Let me just explain." He tries to make you change your mind.
"I don't care. You'll be fine where you've been yesterday and I'll be fine here alone. I can't and I don't wanna trust you. I don't wanna see your face anymore. Delete my name from your head."
He looks like you hit him on his face.
"Do you really want it?" He asks with an incredulous face.
"I do." You say.
He seems really offended, "I'm sorry." He says looking in your eyes. Then he left your house.
...
That night you slept alone, the bad was empty and cold without Justin by your side holding you in his arms and keeping you warm. You couldn't sleep with at least his sweet smell, so you decided to wear just one of his t-shirt that on you looks like a dress.
You didn't sleep at all, at 8 am you're already awake, so you go in the kitchen to have breakfast. Then you do a shower, that is your favorite place for think. It's always so quite and relaxing, it seems like the water slip off the problems and makes you feel better. But this time, it doesn't work.
The house is so quite and sad without him. You miss him.
You wear something of comfortable and not of Justin, and for do something, you go to see if the mail is arrived. You take your keys and when you open the door you see the last thing you expected.
Justin sleeping on the doorstep. He's lying on one side, curled. He looks so cute, small and weak. You can't let him in that way.
You kneel, "Justin." You try to wake him up.
"Baby please, get up." You whisper into his ear and softly kiss his cheek.
You can't resist.
He open his beautiful eyes and turn around to look at you.
"Come in." You stand up and he follows you in the house.
"Y/N, I'm so sorry. I'm a shit, I don't deserve you. I just kiss her, nothing more, I swear. You're perfect to me and you're the best thing I've ever had, I don't deserve you but I need you. I can't live without you, I'm selfish, I know but don't leave me. Please." He's on his knees, his arms around your waist and his voice starts to shake.
"I'm begging you, don't leave me. I'm lost without you. Please, please, please." He tight more your waist. You can hear the tears streaming down his face, he looks like a little baby and it breaks your heart.
You knew you couldn't live without him by your side.
"Justin, get up." You try to convince him.
"I won't until you'll be back with me." He says with so much determination, he's really like a little baby and it makes you smile.
You kneel too and look in his eyes.
"I love you too. So much. I can't live without you too." Some tears keep coming down, "Baby please, stop crying. I won't leave you. I would miss you too much and that would kill me." You kiss each one of his cheeks.
"Never?" He asks.
You laugh a little.
"Never if you don't do something like that again." You say and you finally kiss.
