paper rings; d.m. [discontinued]

four: journal

a/n: i changed the writing to first person because it's more comfortable for me to write that way, i hope you don't mind.

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nevaeh pov

I FOUND myself spending the past few days with Draco more often. We've been doing some fun things together. By fun things I mean occasionally hooking up. Draco said it might help me feel some love. That horny little freak. I guess you could call us friends - who occasionally hooks up. Though we've also been hanging out together, like meeting at the library to do homework or falling asleep near the black lake reading books.

We've also found the spell for the vanishing cabinet together. Turns out the book that Draco's mom gave him in first year was very useful. We even found a spell where you can abort a baby, pretty useful if you ask me. I'm glad we were assigned to do this task together because if I were to do it myself, I wouldn't think twice to jump off the astronomy tower again. We took turns to try out the spell on the cabinet so both of us can enjoy our sleep.

Draco's the only person I'm talking to right now, I'm too scared to open up to other people. Even Draco's asked me to talk to his friends but I refused. 

"Nev, please, just talk to them, I can't hide you forever." Draco pleaded. We were at his dorm, me doing homework and him helping me. "You don't even have to talk to them actually, just sit there and look pretty, which isn't a big problem."

"Draco, this isn't what we agreed on, you said you'd help me with my situation, not befriend your friends." I retorted and rolled my eyes.

"Did you just roll your eyes at me?" Draco snapped, anger and lust filled his eyes by my attitude. All of a sudden, he has his hands wrapped around my throat. "Do it again, I dare you."

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Well, I guess you can say Draco's a very persuasive person. We ended up having sex and he threatened me with orgasm denial which led me to agree to talk to his friends. He walked me to his usual spot during breakfast. To say I was nervous was an understatement, I don't know how to keep conversations alive, thanks to my social anxiety. All I have to do is hope and pray that Draco does all the talking for me.

"Morning Malfo- woah and who might you be?" A brunette boy with sharp features greeted us as we took our seat.

"Oh- uh- hi, I-I'm Nevaeh." I stuttered while trying to serve myself some food and pouring myself some juice. Fuck, why does he have such attractive friends.