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Spencer Paxton
7:12 PM

spencer:

Are you that scared to voice it out and admit it?

Stop looking at me like that. Sisipain kita.

Oh. Maganda talaga na mahulog ka sa pond, tapos sabihin mo sa 'kin kung ilang palaka ang nahuli mo.

meiziah:

Stupid

I thought we're having a serious talk?

spencer:

Ano ba talaga ang gusto mong aminin?

I mean...

Don't look at me like that!

I'm not the one to listen the most. I've muted the world that surrounds me for how many years, but I don't know why I found myself enjoying while listening from all of your rants.

I don't want to deny or admit anything about it.

Stop looking so flustered, type a reply.

meiziah:

Thank you.

You do know that I like Lazarus right?

spencer:

Yup

That you don't have a taste.

meiziah:

Are you done?

Alright.

I liked him for a long time. Four years. In that four years, last year niya lang ako napansin because of my friends.

The usual we became friends. Until this year, he have been showing motives na hindi ko naman sigurado kung intentional o hindi. I can't blame him, baka ayaw niya lang ako masaktan. Maybe he pitied me that's why he keeps on keeping up with me.

I'm bothered by a lot of things. It's been months since I started feeling different around him. Hindi ko ba alam, parang nawawala na ako sa kanya. 'Yung apat na taon. Pakiramdam ko lahat hindi totoo.

I don't even know... of it's possible to be infatuated for four years.

And then I started looking at someone. The way I looked at him. Noong mga unang beses, si Lazarus pa rin ang hinahanap ko. I don't know.

It terrifies me. Na baka kahit may magustuhan akong iba, si Lazarus pa rin ang hanapin ko.

spencer:

You

You like someone else, beside him?

Is that even possible?

meiziah:

Stupid! It's no even impossible!

There were so many guys, ten times attractive and better than him. So it's not impossible.

spencer:

Yeah there were a lot, and some of them are even willing for you.

But then what are you doing?

Why do you keep on drowning yourself with someone just because of the attachment you had with him?

You said you were used to him. Then why try being used to live without him? Just like what you said, it's not even impossible.

And there were a lot of better guys than him.

I'm not even experienced when it comes to this.

Pero alam ko ang gagawin ko.

You should start by accepting it.

You can't afford to loose yourself for someone, lil manager.

meiziah:

Wow.

: )

spencer:

Don't look at me like that. Lmao.

Your cheeks looks so full.

meiziah:

Thank you.

That makes sense.

Ikaw, may gusto ka bang aminin?

Oh, look!

Ang ganda ng moon.

Super liwanag. 🤧❤

spencer:

月が綺麗ですね