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Spencer Paxton
9:24 PM

meiziah:

Hi

spencer:

That's sus

Have you eaten already?

meiziah:

Tapos na, medyo gabi na e.

Ikaw?

spencer:

Yes.

I want to know

Even though I was there in front of you guys, I wanted to know what did you two talk about.

meiziah:

Oh

Nakaoff?

But I purposely talk in front of you so you could hear you know?

spencer:

Am afraid

It's something that would hurt me

That's why I always tried to mute the world around me. Ever since my accident, I always hate myself for being like this.

Using hearing aids? What the fuck is that.

But when our problems at home doubled up, I found it as a blessing in disguise. If I turn it off, I won't be hearing my parents yelling at each other.

That's it.

meiziah:

I'm sorry about that. : (

spencer:

It's nothing really

Baka ang motto ng parents ko, kung tanga na sila lalo pa nilang tangahan.

meiziah:

Bawal

Matawa?

Kasi naman Spence

HAHAHA

grabe sa 'tanga'

spencer:

Yeah I know

Lmao

I was asking you.

meiziah:

Kagaya ng palagi niyang ginagawa. Nag-sorry siya. Palagi na lang umay na nga ako e. But I accepted it, it wouldn't hurt if I did, right?

And it's nothing to me. I didn't know what exactly happen after drowning myself with him for almost four years. At ngayon ko lang na-realize na titigil na ako kasi sa loob ng apat na taon, nawala ko 'yung sarili ko sa paghahangad ko.

spencer:

You don't like him anymore?

Is that even possible?

meiziah:

Trust me it is. For me the almost four years of chasing made me tired, and I woke up that day and I realized that I'm tired. I'm tired of trying to fit in, in his world where I was never belong.

I'm tired of stressing about him, dealing with this small heartbreaks that's been hushed whenever he's around.

It's like my feelings didn't matter at all.

So hindi na.

Ayoko na, siguro naman gets mo?

spencer:

I know.

Sana lang hindi ako mapagod kagaya mo, gets mo?

meiziah:

Hmm

Do you like someone?

spencer:

Well if it isn't obvious, yes.

It was hard to admit, since it was never my intention to fall. When you found yourself tired from all of the chasing, I found myself waking up and having her as someone who comes first in my mind.

Complicated hahaha

meiziah:

Pakiramdam ko naman

Obvious kung sino 'yung gusto mo.

'Di ba? 👀

spencer:

Baka nga

Whatever

Good night, miss manager.

meiziah:

Good night!

seen.

10:56 PM

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