Karl Jacobs x Reader

BHAAHAH HELLO

my last update was like two weeks ago so i want to give you guys a false sense of hope that ur favorite story has been updated but it literally has not haha

I have a girlfriend now, and they make me feel special and lovely but committing is hard? I love her definitely but I'm scared im gonna get hurt? Also they are 28 hours away and I'm scared at people from my school will make fun of me when I eventually tell them. And I'm also scared that they will find someone at their school and think they are better than me and then leave me. And if I don't commit to them, they can't leave me, but I do commit to them. That probably doesn't make sense :/

I JUST WENT REALLY OFF TOPIC WOOP

mommy had boob cancer????? not poggers. thats literally all i can feel about that subject. shes better no more boob cancer but I dunno, she makes me wanna not live but ya know thats pog, she made me question both my gender and sexuality after I finally figured it out but it's my fault for wanting to change so much so fast ahah, I def have mommy issues but ya know, its my fault

moms a penis
gf is sexy
i am also sexy but only sometimes.

clouds#3279 my other discord account was on my phone and my phone broke :D

im so dumb? school. I used to love school and learning/education yk yk all that stuff but once I learned that I actually had to follow expectations and rules for how long it took me to learn math or be judged for how I decide to express my words on an essay, I started to hate it. Like school was fun and I loved it but once the expectations and grades started coming I started falling behind and it is so disappointing and unmotivating. School should be based on pace and I should be able to decide for myself what I want to be proud of, but when I was told by the teachers "I'm better than that" it really hurts. After you put urself on such a high pedestal and when you fall off it, it hurts, and i don't know how to do good again. School fucking sucks. whenever I think about my mental health it always comes down to school. Mental health is very hard. My friends and girlfriend make me happy but, it's like a rush. As it goes away I want more. Fuck that's so fake deep BHAHA. I dunno I get in my feels and then comedy has to come in because I don't think people care about my feelings. I put on an aggressive and funny persona which I can be definitely but it's not all that is there? I dunno feelings are so hard for no reason.

I'm gonna post this. It became very depressing for no reason, but feelings tho hard to explain are good to talk about. I want a therapist, I asked my mom and she said yes, and then I asked her again and she said I don't need one and was using mental health, something she has dealt with, as an excuse. sis i been wanting to end since 8. and i thought those thoughts weren't ok? which they aren't? but they are? ya know? kinda scared to post this but whats the worst that can happen? I can always just make a new wattpad account..:/