KRISTY The shit also happens to the stars

Confidence

The next morning, when I wake up, I still feel so confused. Without surprise ! The first person I think of is Thelma again. I must forget it! I must forget about it! I'll throw out his number. It will surely help me! I'm getting up. I take the piece of paper from the pocket. Just holding it in my hand reminds me of the softness of her skin on mine.
My phone is vibrating. I have a voice mail from the real estate agency. I'm listening to it. Awesome, they found villas to visit that meet my expectations. I call them and make an appointment for the next morning. Today, I prefer to spend the day with Christopher. I must confide in him about what happened there yesterday. I put the paper back in the pocket. I'll see later! I'm texting Elliot to see if we can see each other tonight.

When I get to the kitchen, my brother is having breakfast. What is his apartment for? I'd better be quiet. I speak like Elliot.

- So little sister, get over your emotions? Sacred surprise!
- I'm not telling you! Is it ok for today?
- Of course, what do you want to do?
- If we go to the Billiard-Club, just let me beat you up!
- Excellent idea ! I'm going to beat you up.

We have breakfast together like our childhood. Unlike me, Christopher looks more like our father. He still inherited our mother's thick red hair.

On the way to the Billiards-Club, we are real kids. We act like when we went to school together. We're racing. We jump on foot to find out which one will hold the longest. We play invisible hopscotch. It is bullshit ! It's so funny ! I don't think of Thelma during the journey.

Arrived at the Billiard-Club, we order beers. Usually, we take one of the tables in the middle. Today, I prefer to take one from the back of the room. We do a part. I win ! Christopher wants his revenge. We're starting a new game. In the middle of it, Christopher asks me:

- You want to talk ? I mean, last night.
- I want to tell you something. It has nothing to do with Elliot's marriage proposal. I don't know how to start.
- With simple words! We used to talk to you and me. You know I don't judge you!
- I know ! But this time it's very tricky.
- Always say, we'll see!
I take a deep breath.
- Ok, last night, I kissed a girl!

I had never seen my brother so surprised. He beckons me to continue. So in my tracks, I tell him everything in great detail. If anyone can try to understand me without any judgment, it's him. When I finish my story, I am out of breath. I catch my breath.
Christopher points out to me, that I received a message. It's Elliot who tells me, that I can stop by his place tonight.

- You love it ?
- Thelma?
- Nooo, Elliot!
- I do not know anymore ! What I'm sure is that I don't want to marry her. In any case, not yet!
- You should think about it! And Thelma, are you going to see her again?
- I really want to! I know I shouldn't. But she obsesses me!
- You have a crush!
- For a girl ?
- Apparently !
- I want to die!
- Why, that maybe funny! Try, you'll see! If you don't like it, you're fixed!
- Yeah and Elliot in all of this?
- He doesn't have to know. After all, if that helps you better clarify your feelings for him. Why not ?
- If I understand, you want me to cheat on Elliot?
- You already did it yesterday, right? Do you want to know if you like girls or not? Up to you !

What should I do ? Reason prompts me to tear this damn piece of paper apart. But something inside me calls out for its skin, its smell, its presence. I want to be with her right now!

The parties follow and follow one another. After several duels, we have to face the facts: a draw! There will be no winner today.

- I know, we're going for a jog! It'll help you think!
- And this time, no draw!

I hurtle down the stairs four by four. I am determined to triumph! I run in full stride. I need to let off steam, to exert myself, to sweat. Christopher follows me. He accelerates to reach my level.

- Cheater! We are supposed to start at the same time.

I stick my tongue out at him. We laugh. I'm still cheating. I speed up, we're supposed to turn right. I fork to the left. I hear him moan behind. I turn around and stick my tongue out again. I decrease the pace. He joins me, this time, he's the one sticking his tongue out at me.
Thirty minutes that we run.

- Tell me what's going on in your head.
- Okay ! Tonight I'm going to Elliot's! If I still have feelings for him, I would be. First case, I like it. We reconcile. I'm tearing up Thelma's phone number. Second case, I realize that I no longer love him. We break up. I'm calling Thelma. What do you think about it ?
- Say it this way, it looks pretty simple! I also think, that when you see it, you will put more easily words to your feelings.

If only it was that easy.
We went around the neighborhood twice. I begin to imagine the new neighborhood where I will soon be moving into. I managed to think of something else. First victory! I decide tonight I'll be the sexiest and most desirable in all of California. Elliot can only crack under my spell. I smile. I am confident for tonight. I'll explain to her that marriage can wait. He will understand, I'm sure. And everything will be in order.

When I come into the house with Christopher. Neither of us noticed the paparazzi hiding behind the tree across the street. The next day, we will read in the press: The actress Kristy Watters is jogging with her brother!

EXCITING !!!!