pretty boy. yesahi.

chapter 2.

it had been a solid 2 years since their debut. a 2 successful years that is. topping charts in japan had surely convinced his parents by now his 3 years of training wasn't in vain, and asahi's once distant dreams of becoming a producer seemed closer. yet a constant nagging feeling picked at his mind. 24/7 this feeling thrived, though at this point he'd become so used to it that he accepted it as his new normal. it wasn't like it was the only new thing for asahi. there were new people, new diets, new choreography, new clothes and his favourite, new music. it got to a point where everything that once seemed new and exciting became just new. a good new but a 'new' he very much knew and became acquainted to. and like the nagging feeling that played 24/7, every second was new but felt all too familiar. unlike the positive sensation of every other 'new' in his life this was just constant torment.

but again, he was used to it.
just a feeling. almost impossible to grasp, and hold, and fix.

at first he thought he could fix it, finding short term solution. the solution being yoon jaehyuk.

apart from the japanese members he grew up with since becoming a trainee, jaehyuk was the first person he felt close to. asahi never thought the happy-go-lucky, golden retriever boy would become his friend.

jaehyuk was always there for him. not minding when asahi clung to him during shootings or interviews. and never made him feel guilty for his clingy behaviour. if anything he made asahi's need for protection feel reciprocated by always choosing him. that's what drew them to each other, fulfilling each other's insecurities of being left behind or forgotten. while asahi knew jaehyuk struggled with building trust with fellow members that left him for the most part of treasure box, asahi struggled with simply building strong relationships due to a more reserved nature. so at the beginning both needed each other to grow before creating bonds with the other members.

and yes, for a while jaehyuk scared off whatever nagging feeling asahi had. always making him feel safe and protected. honestly it wasn't deep conversation or a life changing experience that built asahi's trust in him. it was simply his kind smiles and subtle but ever so intentional actions of care and love. just little reminders throughout his day made all the difference to him. though like previously stated, he soon found jaehyuk was only a short term fix to this haunting feeling.

maybe it was the pressure the boys faced with growing popularity or the fact each boy grew close to other members, making their bond less exclusive. asahi didn't really know. it wasn't like their relationship was any less close or strong, but jaehyuk was no longer the fix.

so now it's just 24/7. a background yet slightly terrifying nagging feeling. perhaps one of doubt? or fear of failure? either way, unlike everything else that began to change since two years ago for asahi it wasn't welcomed nor wanted.

a/n

hopefully this chapter didn't seem anti jaeshi or smth aa just bg ;-; 

i luv their relo too but this is an adam ff, tho dw y'all asahi will also learn the root of his issues independently bc he is an independent man !!